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Chapter 2

Dear You,

Well, that went over like a lead balloon. I don’t know what happened. I said I didn’t trust myself, and I was right. Thank you for not bringing it up since then. I’ve decided that I am going to stop being mad at you. You haven’t done anything to warrant my anger, and it isn’t fair to you. The only person I should be angry at is me. So from now on, I’m going to actually try…try to make us seem as normal as I can. You’re doing a great job at it. You just go with the flow of everything, and I wish I could do that. My feelings just get in the way.

I think I’m stuck in some kind of ‘in between’ feeling. I mean, you are the only person who can make me feel like this. Not only that, you’re the only…well you know, that has ever held my attention the way you do. I wonder how well being in the ‘in between’ would go over for us.

Would you like me then, because I would be ‘half’ normal?

-Me

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It’s been three days since I awkwardly tried to kiss Louis. Of course, him being his usual flamboyant (probably a bad choice of word, but moving on) self, carried on the week like nothing had happened. I, however, had not been able to move past it so quickly. I was embarrassed. Mortified even. I needed someone to talk to about this. Someone that would actually talk back to me, not just stare back at me like the words on the pages of the letters. Louis would be my first choice, but that was pretty much out of the question.

“Hello?”

“Uh, hey Li. Can you talk?” He must have been able to hear the unleveled tone in my voice because he suddenly became very interested.

“Sure Harry, are you alright?”

“Well that’s the thing. I made a mistake and I feel rotten about it, but at the same time, I’m not exactly sorry for it.” I bit my lips as the truth came out of my mouth.

“Well, what did you do?” Liam sounded genuinely worried, but I couldn’t bring myself to tell him. Not like this.

“I uhm… I tried to kiss…I tried to kiss a girl who didn’t really want me to kiss her, and now I feel like shit.”

“A girl’s got you feeling like this? When have you ever let someone mess with your heart like this before? “If only he knew I thought. “Well, I think I might have the perfect solution for you. Alright? You just need a little distraction.”

I could tell by his voice that he was genuinely excited about whatever he was scheming.

“Liiiiaammmm….” I groaned.

“Trust me, this will fix things up. Once I work out the details, I’ll talk to you later about it, alright?”

“Fine. Thanks Liam.” I said, though I wasn’t exactly sure just how thankful I really was.

“Love you Haz. Feel better!” With that, he hung up the phone and I plopped back down onto my bed.

I laid there staring up at the ceiling trying to figure out what Liam possibly could have planned. After a while, that got too tiring and I settled on taking a nap.

~*~

“Oh no, he’d never look good in that. Let’s try this.”

“Are you kidding? This one would be best, I promise.” 

The two familiar voices floated around my room, waking me up. I rolled over and saw Danielle and Liam rummaging through the clothes in my closet and scattering various outfits across the floor.