Chapter Twelve
Being in love with someone who doesn’t know you exist isn’t the worst thing in the world. Infact, its quite the opposite. You could still hope, you haven’t been rejected right? Although you pretty much sure know how its going to turn out.
And being in love with her is the best feeling I have right now. I know its weird and crazy at the same time, but I do, I really love her, I'm so crazy in love with her. She’s the first person I think about when I woke up in the morning to the moment I went to sleep at night. And even through the day I think about her, like she was always there at the back of my mind.
“You smile even though you’re alone. You don’t even mind na kahit nagmumukha kanang baliw sa paningin ng ibang tao.”
That too. I didn’t expect na magiging ganito ako kaweird na kahit text nya napapangiti ako; kahit text nya about sa aso nya, sa boring nyang class, napapangiti ako. I even smiled na kahit letter K nga lang ang naging reply nya.
“You see her everywhere.”
Don’t get me wrong, but lately kahit saan ako mapatingin sya ang nakikita ko. Whenever I see the sun, I see her; she’s there in every flowers I see in school; kahit nga sa mga bato nakikita ko sya, maski pa mandin sa baso na iniinom ko andyan sya. Believed it or not, I got all the correct answers sa Psycho exam namin yesterday because I see her sa examination paper ko.
Was it really because Im just blissfully in love?
“Baliw ka lang talaga Aly, baliw na baliw dyan sa pag-ibig mo.”
My eyes shut opened upon hearing those voice. I thought, I was talking to myself. Then all the things came rushing in when I realized that I was with Ella pala, and we’re here inside the library. I nervously scanned the people around me if baka narinig nila lahat ng pinagsasabi ko. I breathed a sigh of relief when I saw nobody’s even glancing at my direction or giving me this weird stares. Nakakahiya kaya. Buti na lang dito kami naupo sa dulong bahagi ng library.
“Tapos kana Aly sa daydreaming mo?” I flinched on my seat when I heard Ella again.
“Ka-kanina mo pa ko kinakausap? Narinig mo lahat?”
“Uh, uh,” she answered, still her eyes were fixed on the book she was reading. Slowly, she put the book down, looked at me then grinned mischievously.
“She was the first person I think about when I woke up. Whenever I see the sun, I see her.” I cant believe she said what I thought was only playing on my mind. May pa twinkle twinkle pa ng mata si Ella at nakahawak ang mga kamay sa magkabila netong mga pisngi, pretending she was daydreaming. "Duh, ang corny mo friend."
“I hate you,” I said looking hurt.
Then we burst out laughing, too late to realize na nasa loob pala kami ng library. Halos lahat ata napatingin sa amin including the Assistant Librarian na agad ko namang binigyan ng peace sign.
“Ikaw kasi,” sabi ni Ella sabay pahid ng luhang tumulo sa mga mata neto. “Ang aga aga mong magpatawa. Baka makick out pa tayo dito.”
“Ikaw kaya,” I said defensively. “Bat ba kasi narinig mo?”
“Kasalanan ko ba? Eh ang lakas mong bumulong kaya.”
