Mixed emotion

Chapter 4

Ja'shawn Pov

The next morning I woke up with little snores coming from my chest. Looking down I see Mesha head buried in my chest. Dang, she's beautiful at time. But when she keep stuff like her past away from me I can't help but to think sometimes.

Turn Up Every Got Damn Where We Go by A1 starts to play as my phone rings. Rushing to answer it before it wakes Mesha.

"Hello" I say

"I need you to make a drop for me" Kreg says

"Man can it wait until tomorrow" I said a little frustrated

"Nigga, the game wait's for nobody" he said with anger

"Ight, I'll be there" I said then hung up the phone

"Shit" I yelled in anger trying not to punch the wall but failed. With that Mesha rolled over and looked at me like I was crazy, which at this point I might be.

"Why you punching shit" she says in a sleepy voice

"Nothing, just go back to sleep" I said walking over to the bed.

With that she turned over and went back to sleep. When i heared her light snore i slipped into the bathroom to do my moring hygiene. We might be just friends but my shit is always at her place so this part my house anyway. I hop in the shower and used my axe for men then rised. Getting out it wrapped the towel around my waist and being to brush my teeth. When i was done i opened the door to Mesha sitting up in the bed with a worried look on her face.

"Whats wrong" i say walking over to the bed. She looked at me with puffy red eyes. Had she been crying while i was in the shower. She sighs then paused

"Did i lose it" she asked with a shaky voice

"Lose what" i said honestly not knowing what she was talking about.

"My virginity" she said almost about to cry again

"Nooo! I didn't take it, i would never force you to do that. Plus if i took it you wouldn't be sitting here right now." i said making her laugh

"Then can i get some clothes" she said referring to her naked body. Looking down to her private part it made my mouth water alittle. She cleared her troat then giggled when my eyes snapped back up. Then she got and walked over to her dresser. Pulling out and putting on her matching bra an boy shorts. Watching her had my head going wild. "Umm bae you know where my clothes at" i said calling her bae on purpose.

She hesitate then looked at me with confusion,"Did you just call me bae" she asked

"Oh my bad did i offend you" I said knowing what i was doing.

"No....but they over here where they always be" she said walking over to were they where. See told you i knew what i was doing

Getting up off the bed I walk over to where she is "Thanks" i say getting my clothes out for work. I put on some versace boxers then a black polo shirt, black jeans with my oreo 6s and gold chain and rolex. When i'm done Mesha is starring at me then walks into her bathroom.

Mesha Pov

This boy be having me going crazy but ima stop testing him because he to damn stronge to be fighting. "Umm bae you know where my clothes at" he said. I was about to answer until i realized, did he just call me bae? Does he really feel that way? Ughh here i go again.

"Did you just call me bae" i said

"Oh my bad did i offend you" he said

"No....but they over here where they always be" i said walking to were they where.

I watched him get dressed and just couldn't take my eyes off his body. He just so damn sexy to be just my bestfriend but i have keep my mind force on getting my life together like auntie Asha said. Thinking about that i forgot i was starring at him when he turned around. I quickly walk to the bathroom to brush my teeth acting like nothing happen.

Walking out the bathroom i walk straight to my closet and pick out my usual outfits nothing to fancy. Peeking out my closet to Ja'shawn still in the room on my phone playing a game. I study his outfite again and thinks of something. With that i pulled out this crop top that said flawless, black ripped hipper jeans, and got my oreo 6s from the top with Shawn gold chain and my hoops. Hope he don't mind.

I walk from my closet into the room and boop down on the bed making him look up from the phone. "Oh ok you tryna match me, huh" he said in a playful voice. "I guess" i say back taking my phone from him. "How you get my password anyways" i said making him smile hard asf.

"It's my birthday" he says making me look at him with a smile. Knowing that he likes me and can put my ass in check when i step out of line it's makes it hard. No matter how much space i put between us he also seems to fight it. Lord knows i don't want him to be just my friend.

Getting out of my thoughts i say "So what you doing today" playing with my phone

"Going to work in a few" he said in a dry tone

"Why you say it like that" i said looking up from my phone

"I just don't want to leave you" he said making me blush

"Oh well, i was just thinking maybe you want to go to the party tonite" i said in a shy tone looking down at the bed sheets.

"Ya you want to go with me" he asked making me want to jump up and down because he said with him. But i kept my cool and said "Ok" trying not to smile from ear to ear. After that he leans in and kiss me on my lips making me moan alittle from his soft lips. He runs his tongue across my bottom lip asking for entry.

I gladly approved.

He pulls me on top him without breaking the kiss. I pull away to take a breath because your girl was out of air. He laughs an run's his fingers threw my curly hair. Looking at him i think about how sweet he is at times. Looking into my eyes he says "Mesha can i ask you a question". "Sure" i say wondering what it was.

" Do you love me" he says with a serious face. Not wanting him to know my true feelings for him i say "We best friends of course i love you, you like a brother" while moving off of him an walking to the door so i wouldn't start something i couldn't finish. Not waiting for a answer i walk down stairs and out the door. Trying to get far away i start to walk down the street to clear my head.

While i'm walking i get a few looks and whistles from dudes. Some saying "Aye let me hit it" these nigga's really think somebody want they ass.

Knocking me out my though, a boy came up and smacked my ass . Turning around i see this tall boy with tattas bitting his lip. "Tf, i ain't your hoe your stupid mutherfucker" i said pissed off.

"Bitch whatch your mouth when you talk to me" he said getting in my face

"I'm not them other girls, you betta get tf out my face" i said turning to walk away. But was pulled back by my hair.

"Oh i see, you them beat a bish ass type" he said being sarcastic

Trying to get my hair free i go to kick him in the private part when he blocks it. With that he picks me up and walk's over to a group of guys. Screaming i struggle to get free, then it went dark.