why me?

VIII

Taehyung shivered as he stood under the stream of ice-cold water, leaning against the wall behind him. He stared at his bandaged hand, clenching it until he could see the white bandages slightly turning red. The boy let his head fall back, not minding the sharp pain it caused as he let tears go freely. "All my fault, all my fault... Why do I always ruin all good things?"

Taehyung stood in the shower until his lips turned blue and his skin was pale. He stepped out and refused to look in the mirror. He jumped as he heard a knock on the door, quickly wiping his tears away and changing his bandages.

"Tae? Are you okay in there? It's been an hour since you went in...", Taehyung felt guilt slice right through him as he heard Namjoon's voice. He knew the older boy wanted to shower after him.

'Stupid, taking way too long and holding hyung back', Taehyung thought to himself, angrily rubbing his towel over his skin way too harshly.

He didn't notice Namjoon coming in until he felt someone pulling his wrist back.

"Tae, you're being way too harsh with the rubbing. God, you're freezing", Namjoon gasped and grabbed another towel, wrapping it around Taehyung.

Taehyung didn't respond, he simply let it happen while he stared at his feet.

"Taehyung, you could get sick if you shower with ice-cold water, you know? Why're you doing this? Why won't you talk to us?", Namjoon gently made Taehyung look at him, his eyes soft and a worried frown on his face.

Taehyung teared up but looked down. "I'm fine hyung, it's nothing. Don't worry about me", he said softly and tried to get past Namjoon.

Namjoon however blocked the way, moving to the same side as Taehyung each time he tried. The younger boy was getting frustrated.

"Just let me go hyung, I'm fine."

Namjoon crossed his arms. "You're obviously not fine Taehyung, talk to us!"

"Let me go!", Taehyung yelled and pushed Namjoon back with more strength than he intended.

The older boy fell back, his head hitting the door. The impact wasn't that hard, but it surprised him. Namjoon cursed, his hands going up to rub the now sore spot on the back of his head.

Taehyung stepped back as he looked at him, his eyes wide before he ran past Namjoon, going to his room. He bumped into Hoseok on the way there, though he made no effort to even apologize before he locked himself in.

Hoseok shrugged but gasped as he saw Namjoon and helped him up. "Are you okay? What happened?", he frowned as he guided Namjoon to sit on the edge of the tub. Namjoon nodded and groaned. "I'm fine, it's probably just gonna bruise..."

Hoseok sighed and hugged Namjoon carefully. "Clumsy leader, be more careful next time", he smiled.

Namjoon shook his head. "I wasn't being clumsy... Taehyung pushed me away. I think something serious is going on hyung. We need to talk to him."

Hoseok got up, his smile long gone. "Taehyung did this?! That brat... I'm telling Jin hyung", he huffed. Before Namjoon could even protest, Hoseok was already storming down the hallway, towards the kitchen. Namjoon could hear him walk into Jimin in the hallway, instructing him to 'shower Namjoon with hugs and kisses and love', and soon enough the smaller boy came to comfort him.

Seokjin looked up from where he was cutting up some vegetables for dinner as Hoseok stormed in. "Hobi, what's wrong? You look angry", Seokjin frowned and put the knife in his hand down.

Hoseok nodded. "Hyung, Taehyung pushed Namjoon and he fell against the door", Hoseok pouted. He didn't want to snitch on Taehyung, but Namjoon could've been seriously hurt.