Down by the river by the boats
Where everybody goes to be alone
Where you won't see any rising sun
Down to the river we will run
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My mind was blank as i walked up the gravel path to get to the cliff, my boots crunching on it. Going to a cliff which happened to be the most well-known place for jumping into the fast flowing river below seemed quite crazy but it was my only hiding place, where I always went looking for a piece of my sanity.
Not many people went there considering that the creepiness of the place frightened almost everyone, including grown up men who claimed to be fearless.
Hell, I was scared shitless too when I first went there but soon, the darkness and the moonlight calmed me and the silence was peaceful.
It was my getaway from my mum's high expectations from me and my dad's constant yells to try harder.
After almost an hour of walking, i walked over to my spot on the cliff, my eyes suddenly drifted to the girl standing at the edge of the cliff only a few metres away from me. I walked up to her slowly and stood beside her.
She turned to look at me, face stained with black tears and chapped lips. She was shaking and her lips were quivering.
"Love, what are you doing here at such an ungodly hour?" i asked.
her soft and frail voice spoke,
"Running from my fears."
She looked down at the river again and asked,
"And what are you doing here?"
My voice wavered as i answered,
"Just about the same."
She slightly smiled, introduced herself as Ocean and walked back to the spot i had picked.
After almost five hours of talking about our fears and smoking the night away, the sun still couldn't be seen rising.
Ocean had this distant look in her eyes as she blew cigarette smoke and her small voice spoke, pricking my skin like a thousand needles
"We should run away, to the river. We should let the water fill our lungs and our lips turn purple.
People like us, they don't belong anywhere."
And as i laughed it off, i couldn't help but think if she had really meant that.
As the sun stretched along the horizon, she looked at me and whispered a soft goodbye and turned around and walked down the path littered with small daisies and weeds and my heart threatened to explode into tiny shreds as i looked at her one last time before sitting back down.
And as i laid on the grass looking at the pink sky, my mind wandered off to her and her eyes and my bones felt like burnt paper and they powdered and i think my lungs choked on it and i swear, it was only pleasuring because her eyes were still on my mind.
