Concealed Identity (Kageyama x Hinata)

Chapter 5

"I cant go back. . ." I look down at the ground.

"What do you mean 'you cant go back' Hinata?" I shake my head holding more tears from flodding out of me.

"You wouldnt understand." I shake my head once more and look up at him.

"Stop being stupid, c'mon we aint got all night. We have a shit ton of matches tomorrow!" He grips my wrist and i yank it back.

"YOU MEAN I DO?! BECAUSE FROM WHAT YOUVE SHOWN, YOUR NOT GONNA PLAY ANYMORE!!!" He steps back as if i had punched him in the face. I cant see his facial expression very well but from the looks of it. . . it looks different. . . he seems hurt.

"YOU DONT UNDERSTAND FUCKER!-" Before he could continue I cut him off so I dont have to hear and excuse.

"I DONT UNDERSTAND?! I DONT BECAUSE YOU DONT LET ME HELP YOU. YOU EXPECT TO DO EVERYTHING ON YOUR OWN NOT CARING IF YOUR WORRYING OTHERS!!!" He shoves me back by my shoulders.

"YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW IT IS TO BE DIFFERENT! YEAH YOUR SHORT BUT YOUR NOT EXPECTED TO BE ANYTHING. THE ONE PERSON YOU LOOKED UP TO HASNT LEFT YOU WITH NOTHING!" I shove him back with much more force than he used as sobs escape from me.

"I AM DIFFERENT FROM ALL OF YOU! YOU ARE WHO I LOOK UP TO KAGEYAMA AND YOU NEVER EVEN CAME TO ME IN THE FIRST PLACE. YOU JUST PUSH ME AROUND TELLING ME WHAT I CANT DO!!!" I see a blurry image come from the right side as Kageyamas fist lands a blow on my cheek. I flail backwards onto the comcrete floor and grab my cheek.

"YOUR NOT DIFFERENT! EVERYONE LOVES YOU. AND DONT LOOK UP TO ME BECAUSE THATS ALL I WILL EVER DO! I WILL ONLY EVER BRING YOU DOWN!" Suddenly. . . those few words made my heart stop beating. . . We used to say as a team we will always hold each other up. . . but here I am. . . On the ground staring up at a man. . . someone I thought would carry me through the thick. Someone i thought had my back. . . but instead it was someone who stab my back and left me to die. I cant take it anymore.

"IM A GIRL KAGEYAMA!" I yell at the top of my lunges making sure it shoots straight through his thick skull to his brain.

"I HAVE TO PRETEND TO BE A BOY TO BE TREATED EQUALLY AND NOT WEAK! DOMT RAMBLE ON ABOUT YOUR ISSUES ABOUT BEING DIFFERENT WHEN YOU CHOOSE TO BE DIFFERENT. I DIDNT CHOOSE TO BE BORN THIS WAY BUT I WAS!!! YOU CHOOSE TO PUSH AWAY ANYONE WHO WANTS TO HELP YOU AND TAKE EVERYTHING OUT ON YOURSELF!!!" He stumbles backwards gripping his fists together.

"W-w-what?" He stutters. The lights flicker on revealing who I really am. He looks from my toes to my face. I feel my cheek already beginning to swell. He stands there in shock at what he said and done. I stand up and turn around.

"H-Hinata. . ."

"Shut up." I say before walking away leaving him standing there. I cant take it anymore. I'm tired of hiding and trying to help him when he doesnt want my help.

"Hinata!" He yells just before I try rounding the corner. I turn my head scolding him. . . something id never done before. I feel the anger running through my veins. . . this isnt the same as in a match. . . its nothing I've ever felt before. . . i think it's. . . hate. Hatred not to Kageyama. . . but to myself. To put myself through so much and accomplish nothing. . .

"I really liked you Kageyama. . . I had for a while now but. . . I guess I'm just like any other girl. Falling for all the wrong guys." Tears roll down my cheek as I smile and walk away. My heart has never felt so heavy. Ive never said such harmful things or felt so bad. I wish I could take it back but I know I shouldn't and I dont deserve that. I feel like all confidence and pride has been ripped from me. . . not by anyone else but me. My cheek begins to burn as I see a large clock on a skyscraper. I should probably head back to sleep but. . . I dont think I can ever fool someone again. I'm just a girl and I guess I finally see you cant escape the role you have been given.