Gemini

The Order

To say that moment in the library haunted me, would be an understatement. My mind wandered to it at the most inconvenient times, such as in the middle of math class with the ever-so-boring instructor as she tried to teach equations with the passion of a sloth. I'd be writing down numbers and a flash of P'Arthit's wet lips would flash before my eyes, distracting me and by the time I'd finally clear my head, the professor would've already moved onto the next problem.

Which meant that when it was time to meet up with P'Arthit in the library again, I was just as lost as I was the first time he tutored me. I tried to get Sing to help me out instead but he flat out refused, saying that I could just ask P' to explain it since he seemed more than happy to do so.

And he was.

Each time I saw him that week, P'Arthit was always ready with a patient smile as he went over the material with me step-by-step. Meanwhile Sing would do his homework quickly without interruption, often pulling out a new comic book to read while he waited for us to finish.

I can't help but find it suspicious that P'Arthit never bothers to ask Sing if he needs help or offers to go over his answers with him like he does for me. Maybe it's because I am more than a disaster for the both of us that he doesn't have the energy to do so?

Yet I can't stop the nagging feeling that it's more than that. That maybe he knows that Singto has never needed his help.

But I know that I told him - as Singto - that "I" was bad at math that day at the mall.

Which begs the question, does this mean P'Arthit knew that it was me then somehow?

Logically, my brain is telling me to put the clues together because there are several to indicate that he did know at some point but was playing along for some unknown reason. Not to mention all the unrelenting side comments I've had to listen to from you readers about what's going on behind the scenes that I've been ignoring at the author's insistence.

[Author - For plot reasons dude!! And...and character progression! Just do what I say or I'll pair you up with Bright instead!]

Shuddering at the prospect, I tune out the audience again and pretend y'all don't exist for the time being...at least until the author is sufficiently distracted.

Anyways, back to the problem at hand.

My current working theory is that if P'Arthit knew it was me that night we kissed, he must've liked me all along and was just too shy to approach me until I was about to leave. So to extend that conclusion to now, I'd have to assume that it's possible that he is still shy and would have felt it was easier to pretend to go along with the twin swap in order to spend time with me, right? But that assumption only plays true if he actually still likes me as he did back then.

So, how does one go about proving their theory and assumptions about the subject in question?

I take a quick glance at the man sitting beside me at the moment as he reviews my answers to his practice quiz, marking a giant red "X" over yet another wrong answer. It seems that I am doomed to struggle with questions in all forms that I don't have a clear answer to.

However, the answer to my own internal problem weighs heavier on my mind as it has the power to dramatically change my perspective on a lot of our previous encounters.

"Well...you got less than half wrong this time. That's actually an improvement."

Jolted out of my thoughts, I pout at his teasing of my poor result on the quiz that he sprung on me this afternoon without warning. Doesn't he know how difficult it is to focus when he's sitting so close to me? It's bad enough that I have the memory of his lips close to mine still flashing in my mind on an infinite loop but when he's next to me, I can feel the warmth of his skin radiating next to mine and the smell of his cologne wafting gently to my nose, all of which further distracts me from what I'm trying to work on.