My Arrogant Pretty Boy - A James Sirius Potter Fanfiction

Chapter Twelve: When All Hell Breaks Loose

That's what Eva was wearing, BTW

I woke up with a heavy heart. I had never in my life felt this guilty because I was going to do something. Why, you may ask? Because I was going to forever ruin my love life by turning down James' offer on a Hogsmeade trip, deining my feelings for him. In the Great Hall.

Yeah. I know, it sounds bad, but it's for the best.

For your own best. Not for him.

Shut up!

But I'm telling the truth. It's only for you and not for him.

Just go. Away!

I am you.

You are me? What?

I'm your conscious.

Oh. That explains a lot of th-

"G'morning, Eva!" Scorpius greeted with a sly smile, sitting down next to me.

I didn't answer. Just nodded back at him, too absorbed in my thoughts. I was actually really worried and guilty but I did what I did best. I pushed down every single emotion except insensitivity and steeled myself to say what would hurt...a lot of people. Like Albus, Scorpius, Lily, Dominique, James, Weasley's, and the Scamander twins...god...that's a lot of people.

I started sweating on my hands. Something I never do. Oh my god. Shit shit shit. This'll probably ruin any chance with James...right? Oh my Salazar, who am I kidding! Of course, it will, you stupid bitch! Oh my god oh my god oh my god! Why did I-

"Evagaline Auxatia," someone called me.

I looked up to see a boy with loving hazel eyes, messy jet black hair, and an ador-cu-ho-just a fucking smile on his adora-hot-OH MY GOD! Just a stupid effing face!

"Yes?" I asked sharply, not meeting the confused gazes of Scorpius and Albus. (Emily was transferred to Beauxbatons by the way. Her mum wanted her to leave this "blasted school full of mudbloods and muggle-lovers")

James' eyes looked confused for a moment before he grinned again. "Will you go to Hogsmeade with me tomorrow, Aves?" he asked, his eyes glinting.

And what I did next was the one and only thing I've ever said in my life that I fully regretted.

I sat up straighter, flicked my hair over my shoulder, and sent one of my harshest glares his way. "No!" I exclaimed, standing up from the bench, scoffing. James looked shocked, Albus looked like he was going to faint from confusion, and Scorpius was glaring at me with narrowed eyes.

I gulped a little, gathering all of my Slytherin courage and forced down all of my human(witch)heart and goodness and added, "Why in the name of Salazar would I go out with a blood traitor like you?!" I shrieked, purposely adding more emphasis on blood traitor. "Like I, a perfectly able and good Slytherin pureblood, would ever think to date a pathetic blood-traitor Gryffindor! The audacity!" I screeched before rolling my eyes dramatically and sauntering out of the now-silent Great Hall; leaving a hurt James, furious Wotters and Scamander twins, furious Scorpius, and a confused school body.

The moment my feet hit the third flight of stairs in the "hidden" corridor, sobs racked my body. How stupid could I be?! I literally reached the highest level of stupid I could ever get. And the look in his eyes after I said those blasted words! I wanted to take them all back and shove it down my mother's throat. But, noooo, I needed to keep going and, therefore, breaking his heart by those dreadful words I used.

I hadn't used the word "blood-traitor" and "pureblood" in like seven. Effing. Years.

I was shit when I got back to the common room. Actually, scratch that. I was shit now. Oh my goodness gracious. I was touched in the head, right? Why the heck am I-

"Auxatia!" someone bellowed.

I looked up from the floor I collapsed on to see Albus, Scorpius, and literally every. Single. Wotter. Striding towards me with fury in their eyes.

I gulped slightly, willing my eyes back to blue and quickly wiping my tears away. I made my face an(hopefully)emotionless mask and turned to face the(rather very)furious group of students.

I cursed under my breath.

"I'm shit now."