My Sarcastic Sunflower (John Laurens x Reader)

Chapter 7

John's POV

The ret of the squad and I reach our dorm. I sit on the couch, full from lunch. Y/n sits on the bean bag (yes you guys now have a bean bag) in front of me.

    Call me crazy, but I'm already in love. I stare at her messy but beautiful (h/c) hair flowing lightly. I want to tell her how I feel, but I need to give her some time from what happened earlier, and well, some more time because we just met yesterday.

I can't believe that I fell for one of Alex's gruesome lies again, you'd think I'd learn from what happened before, but no, I just have to be so naive. I sigh in disappointment in myself. Why did I start trusting and being that overprotective friend for Alex? Why did I do that? Why?

    "Hey Laurens, you want Krispy Kreme doughnuts?"

My mind goes back to what happened with Alex.

He shoves me to the wall, his eyes glowing with-

"Laurens?" I bite my lip to prevent it from quivering.

"Honestly, I didn't think you'd fall for that." He cackles

    "John?" I blink my eyes rapidly, trying to stall the tears, but failing.
"John." The moment I hear that voice, I look up, to see-

Y/n looking at me worriedly. I look around to see the rest of the squad also staring, their eyes full of concern. Ugh, she must think I'm weird now.

"I-I'm fine." I dismiss, waving my hand. I get up from the couch to go to the bathroom, but a hand catches my arm, gripping it hard. I turn to see Y/n, looking scared.
"John, are you alright? Do you want to talk about it? You really don't have to." I shake my head, attempting to leave. I expect Y/n to keep her grip, but she doesn't push it. She nods in understanding and goes back to whatever she was doing.
-

Everyone waves goodbye as they exit until the room is empty except for Y/n and I.

She turns to me and takes my hand.

"If you need someone, I'm always here. I'll be open to anything." She says with a genuine tone. I nod and give her a grateful smile. Then she does unexpected. She kisses my cheek. My cheeks flush at the contact so does hers. She lets go of my hand, and heads to her room.

Do I have a chance with her? No, it was just a friendly kiss. But it could mean something different, right?

Cut it off John, you can't think of that.

Is thinking that someone likes you being self absorbed? Well, the last time that happened... it didn't end well.

"Honestly, I didn't think you'd fall for that."

I try to shake off the memories. I sigh, hoping that this year would be better.

-

I finally close the door and start screaming internally. I already did when I kissed his cheek, but this is louder.
   What was I thinking? Having all that courage?
He probably thinks I'm a weirdo now. I groan as I look back at what I did. I feel like I'm in a video, the scene being rewinded to that embarrassing scene. Now he really won't open up to me.

What is wrong with me?
Right, everything.

What happened to him? Was it something he remembered?

I look around the room.
Right, I need to decorate this place, spruce it up a bit. It looks too... plain and normal, and you know I'm most definitely not normal. I get my phone to list things down I need to buy, oh, and I also need a job.