The Love Nest In The City Of Evil ( Synyster Gates Fan~Fic)(Completed/REWRITING)

Chapter 9

Brian's P.O.V

I look down at the ground as I walk up the street. i think to myself what the hell am I doing. I wish that i could just leave without feeling bad about it... I love Katarina though and Danny I need them and I havent even known them that long ... I've fallen in love with Kat... I stop and sit down on the bench thats next to me and I put my head in my hands I sigh and say to myself " what the fuck! did i just admit to myself that im in love with her. I've known her for 2 weeks and i losing my mind really?"Yes i am in love with her... I need her but i cant do this i cant hurt such an amazing women and her little girl. I cant put Danny through that i mean the little girl doesnt even know her own real father and im not sure i could be a dad and what the hell am i thinking... im thinking about being a father now! I need to become the cold heartless bastard i used to be. I've dated a few ladies but Kat is different. There is this connection there that was almost instant.

i dont even know how long it is before i look up but when i do i realize that Kat and Danny are standing in front of me. Danny looks at me then she grabs my arm and wraps her arms around my neck " it okay! Brian" I just hug her back then look at Katarina " Kat i cant do this im about to have to leave to go back on tour and i dont know how long ill be gone this time... plus i cant take you with me... I mean i could but you are about to start back up in college." She just looks at me and smiles " Brian it's okay i promise... if you wanna leave go ahead Me and Danny will understand.This is all a lot. A kid and everything. You don't have to lie about going on tour..." I sigh" what no I really do Matt called me and Jackson's."

I just look at her and feel a pain shoot through my chest. I ask myself why that hurt so badly when she said that. I just sigh , Kat grabs Danny"come and get your stuff and you can go wherever it is that you want to go it's all up to you. Just do what you need Brian" We all silently walk back to the apartment then i get all of my stuff and i call my driver  he tells me it will be about 15 minutes until he gets there and in that 15 minutes we all sit in silence even little Danny stays quite.

When my driver gets there he comes to the door and knocks  Danny runs to me and hugs my legs " I am gonna miss you Brian... please come back..." I feel some tears slip down my cheeks as i pick her up and kiss her forehead "if you wanna talk to me get your mommy to call me okay sweetie" She just smiles but i can see the hurt in this 3 year old's eyes. I sigh and put her down she runs and sits on the couch just staring at me then Kat looks at me and says" Brian.. just so you know.... when and if you are ever back in Las Vegas... you are more than welcome to just drop by.... you don't even have to call.... I'm here. This was fun. Once in a lifetime kind of thing we had here. Little Rock star dream checked off my bucket list"

I pull her close and kiss the top of her head .i grab my bag and walk out the door. When I walk out and go downstairs i sigh and think to myself why in the hell does this hurt so bad. I walk down to the car and put my bags in the back.I sit there looking out the window and my driver Tom looks back at me through the rear view mirror " hey are you okay gates?" I just shrug my shoulders as I look out the window at Kat's house one more time.

He sighs and turns up the radio. I look down at the screen on my phone. I smile at the picture of Kat, Danny, and I at the park but lock my phone as i tear up and i think to myself why am i so emotional over this woman and her little girl. I need to get my shit together before i fuck myself up by over thinking everything. When we finally stop I look out at the big hotel where I met the beautiful Katarina in the hotel freaking bar and I put my head in my hands for a second then i get out, my driver Tom steps out too and ask he opens the door he says"why did you pick this one again if you met her here?" I shrug my shoulders " I don't know.." I grab my few bags and walk inside.

When i get inside I am greeted by a bunch of happy fans who bombard me with questions. i keep my head down today and push through them and go to the elevator. I quickly close it and look over to see jack my security guard is standing there with my room key. He smiles at me  " how you doing Brian? here is your room key, man. you're in room 356. " I slide the key in my pocket " im uhhh man im not sure how i am ... my head and heart feel a little fucked up right now.." He looks at me with a surprised expression on his face " why man wait what happened to you and that really pretty chick?" I just look over away from him and lie because it's what I have to do " oh that girl Kat? there was nothing between us .. we were just fuck buddies.. she was a new to the band groupie. Didn't Johnny sleep with the girls friend?"The elevator dings and I get off with my bags quickly , I walk to my room and go in and once im inside my room I let out a frustrated loud sigh and throw my bag at the wall.

*** Few hours later at the bar***

I get to the bar and Zacky comes over " hey man we got you a couple  shots and a beer at the table. You alright." We walk over to our booth I quickly say" I'm fine man. Just going to have to get her out of my system. I'm a fucking rockstar and I'm not doing the settling down thing." He gives me a half smile as we get to the table" heyyyyyyyy it's my little love sick puppy " Matt yells at me obviously drunk already. I down the shots and sip my beer. We all sit around bullshitting and talking until a large group of girls comes over with enough shots for every one. That turns into a whole party.

Johnny pulls me aside" so I'm not really  all that drunk and I don't plAn on doing this girl me and Kaylee really hit it off. She is coming on tour with us i hope that is going to be okay" i smile " wow man that is amazing. i know this is rare for you. i hope she is mrs. right." he grins like a little boy in love " i think i really could spend some time with her "  As we get into the penthouse I see Johnny sneak off to a bedroom closing and locking the door. I sigh and walk out to the balcony. Matt and Zacky with help of our guards are keeping the ladies entertained.  I close my eyes letting my head fall a little. I stand there for I don't even know how long before i jump as I feel my hands on my back. I turn around and I'm greeted by Laura one of the girls in the group" so what's your deal? You drink too much?" I chuckle" no definitely not that. It doesn't matter. I came out here for the quiet." She nods" I can go back in then or you could tell me what's wrong." I sigh" it's a girl." She smiles" you love her?" I look away and shrug my shoulders" well why can't y'all be together?" " she has a little girl and a job. I'm Synyster Gates... ROCKSTAR... they don't fit into my life style..." she shakes her head " they could fit...you just don't know if you'll like the change and that is a giant life long commitment to make so quickly. I get it... I have a little boy. Give it some time and if it's all you can think of and nothing changes your feelings or hers.. then MAKE IT WORK... true love is rare this day and age and romance is dying...  just to throw it out there if you did wanna try to get over her with me I am open to that but if it doesn't feel right I also understand ."

I can't help but laugh at her straight forwardness " I think I'm going to just go hang out with Johnny maybe go to bed. It's been a long day and I'm sad honestly." Laura hugs me " I hope you two get together." I smile and nod as I walk to the room Johnny went into. I knock on the door and he cracks it open " yeah." " is there another bed in there or a couch? I want to sleep. " he opens the door and there is a second bed. " you alright Brian." As I face plant into the bed I turn to him and say " no... no I'm not and I'm going to sleep and try to forget about her. I want to see her Johnny .. I want to hold her... I sound like a bitch.." I close my eyes as the room spins  a  bit. He pulls the blanket on me and cuts the light off  before he climbs in his own bed " I'm sorry Brian... I wish I could help you man."

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