Change Your Ticket

Chapter 11

I walked with Harry into the cafe and he ordered our food and we sat down and waited. It was a bit awkward for a few seconds, but it felt like minutes, until he finally spoke up.

H: "Do you think we'll ever get back together?"

Y/N: "I'm not sure Harry...I'm scared of going through the same pain."

H: "It was a stupid question to ask, I'm sorry. I promise I'd never put you through that pain again."

Y/N: "I want to believe you, I really do, but there's a part of me that's screaming at me telling me not to. The thing is, you really broke my heart. You didn't realise it but it went on for a long time and I eventually hit my breaking point. I thought things would get fixed but I had no hope."

I looked up into Harry's eyes and they looked really glossy.

H: "I've had therapy and I completely understand what I did wrong and it will never happen again."

Y/N: "Alright Harry..."

H: "I promise! I still lo-"

Y/N: "Can we please drop the subject?"

I sighed and he looked kind of hurt but I couldn't sit here and talk about that.

H: "I'm sorry."

Y/N: "It's fine."

We had the random small talk here and there and ate our food. After about an hour and a half we got up and left and Harry drove me back to Ashleigh's house.

H: "Would you like me to come in and help you?"

Y/N: "I'll be fine, just stay here."

He nodded his head slowly and I hopped out of the car and made my way to the door and walked in.

A: "Oh Y/N, I've been so worried! I'm so sorry, I never should've said what I did. I was totally out of order."

Y/N: "Thank you for realising."

I walked past her and up the stairs, into my room and started packing a bag.

A: "Are you actually going to leave?"

Y/N: "Yes Ashleigh, I'm sorry."

A: "Where are you going...wait a minute-"

I sighed and threw another top into my bag and turned to face her.

Y/N: "Yes, I'm going to stay with Harry. You know the one that used me as a punching bag but apparently it was my fault? Yeah, but we aren't going to do anything for your information."

A: "Y/N you are the definition of stupid! He's going to hurt you so badly again and you're going to come back running to me and I'm going to say I told you so."

Y/N: "Look, it's my life so I'll do it how I want to."

A: "You still love him don't you?"

I bit my lip nervously and looked down at the floor.

A: "I wish you the best."

She smiled and then left the room. My answer wasn't a yes but it wasn't a no, I wasn't sure really. I finished packing my bag and then headed down the stairs towards the front door.

A: "I wish you the best Y/N, I hope you two can work things out. He still loves you and he always will no matter what."

Y/N: "Thanks Ash."

I smiled at her and then walked out of the door and back to Harry's car where I put the bag in the back of the car and then hopped into the passenger seat.

H: "You ready?"

Y/N: "I guess so."

He then drove us all the way to his house and it was pretty grand if I do say so myself. We jumped out of the car and I grabbed my back whilst he unlocked the door and held it open for me.

H: "The guest bedroom is this way."

I followed him to the bedroom and placed my bag down.

H: "I'll give you some time to unpack, if you need anything I'll be downstairs in the living room."

Y/N: "Okay, thanks again."

H: "I'd do anything for you."

He smiled weakly and then walked downstairs to the living room. I started to take some clothes out and place them in drawers and in the wardrobe but I couldn't be bothered to do everything so I left a few in there. I slowly walked out of the room and I walked down the corridor and saw a door open to a room so I slowly walked on.

Y/N: "Harry's room..."

I whispered and fully stepped in. I looked around and took in the sight in front of me: a made bed, a wardrobe, drawers. However, there was framed pictures of me and him up on the walls, one of my t-shirts on the floor and also I saw a box under his bed. Curiosity took over me so I walked over to the box and pulled it out from under the bed and then sat on the bed and popped the lid off. There was a bunch of images of me and him in here so I picked up the pile and started going through them: the day of our first date, the day of our first kiss, the day he came back from tour, the day we tried making some pizza in the kitchen, the day he took me to my favourite amusement park and went on the really big roller coaster to make me happy even though he hates them...The list goes on and on, what the heck? I know Harry would probably kill me if he saw me going through his stuff so I continued anyway, I'm stupid. Underneath the images was a small little diary thing so I opened it up.

Y/N: "Holy shit..."

I started reading through it:

23.05.16

Dear Diary,
Today I met a really great girl. She's not like the others because she is way more kind and caring and can really see my true colours. She has the most beautiful smile and her laugh is music to my ears. She makes me smile so much and I get so many butterflies around her. I'm hoping one day I can make her mine, I never believe in love at first sight until now.

I suddenly began to feel tears fall from my eyes as I skipped some pages and read more.

02.06.16

Dear Diary,
Today I'm having my first date with the girl of my dreams. I'm so excited! I hope I don't over do myself or anything, I really want to impress her. I want her to be mine and make her the happiest person ever...

Dear Diary,
I couldn't write much earlier because my shaking hands couldn't take it. I had the date tonight and I think it went really really well. She was smiling so much the entire time and she said I looked good and that I was really sweet and generous. Then I drove her back home and she was a bit nervous at first but then we both leaned in at the same time and kissed each other on the lips! It was the best kiss I've ever had, that's for sure...Her lips are so soft and ugh...

I was really crying now and I even read what he wrote after I came back here to England. He sounded SO heart broken, I felt so guilty but at the same time I didn't. He said he was going to do anything he could to get me back.

'She's the love of my life, my soul mate, the other half of me...I can't let her go this easily. You've made my life very challenging God but I won't give up. She is what completes me, she is me if that makes sense. Y/N Y/L/N is the reason I still exist today and there's no way in Hell I'm letting her go that easily-'

H: "Y/N?! What are you doing?"

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A/N:

so this is a really long chapter...anyway, i hope you enjoyed it. the idea kinda came to my head as i wrote it all down hehe. anyway bye :)