Change Your Ticket

Chapter 13

I woke up the next day and groaned and tried getting up but was trapped. I looked down and saw a strong arm wrapped around my waist so I quickly turned around and saw Harry peacefully sleeping. My heart jumped into my mouth and I nearly screamed. What the fuck have I done?! I sleep with him...I literally had sex with my ex.

Y/N: "Harry? Harry?! Harry get up!"

I was whisper yelling so I didn't startled him and he suddenly groaned and fluttered his eyes open and looked at me and smiled weakly.

H: "Hmmm good morning angel."

Y/N: "Harry, no! No, no, no! Let me go! This wasn't meant to happen!"

H: "What do you mean?"

Y/N: "We had sex together and then fell asleep in each other's arms like a couple! We aren't a couple, we're just friends!"

His grip loosed on me but he still didn't say anything, he just sat there kind of looking hurt. I quickly got out of bed and put my clothes back on.

Y/N: "That was all a big mistake and never should've happened."

H: "It was my fault, I shouldn't have lead you on."

Y/N: "It doesn't matter anymore, I'd rather forget about it please. We are just friends."

H: "Yeah you said!"

He seemed really upset but I just walked out of the room and went into my own room to get changed into some better clothes and get ready for the day. I can't believe I allowed myself to sleep with him, what the hell was I thinking? I feel like I've just lost my virginity all over again, oh my gosh.

Flashback 3 years ago, I lost my virginity to Harry:

H: "Are you sure you want to do this?"

Y/N: "Yes, we've been dating for 6 months now and I'm really in love with you. This is the next stage in our relationship."

H: "But are you positive that you want to lose your virginity to me?"

Y/N: "Yes Harry, I'm positive."

H: "I don't want to hurt you though."

Y/N: "Please just do it already."

H: "Okay, but tell me if I'm hurting you okay?"

I just nodded my head and that night exact night I lost my virginity. The following morning I woke up with a pain in between my thighs and when I woke up I winced with pain. Harry immediately shot up in the bed and looked at me with a very concerned expression.

H: "Are you okay? What's happened? Oh my gosh are you dying?!"

Y/N: "Oh for goodness sake Harry! I'm not dying, but there's a pain in between my legs."

H: "Oh my God...I went to rough. I'm so sorry Y/N."

Y/N: "I think it's because it's my first time, I'll be fine."

H: "Do you need anything? Like a hot water bottle or any pain killers? Ooh, I could get you your favourite snacks!"

Y/N: "You're such a sweetheart Haz, thank you."

I kissed his nose softly...

He was so kind and caring, what happened to us? I hadn't remained but I had finished putting on my makeup and stood up and left the room and went into the kitchen.

Y/N: "Ooh, smells lovely."

H: "Thanks."

He didn't say anything else but eventually served up the food on plates and handed one to me and sat at the table with me. There was a really awkward tension in the air so I had to break it.

Y/N: "Alright what's wrong?"

H: "Nothing."

Y/N: "Don't lie to me."

H: "I just...you said that that sex meant nothing to you but it meant something to me."

Y/N: "Haz, look, it's just because I don't think I'm at the stage of love yet. It wasn't meant to happen."

H: "Yeah of course not."

Y/N: "I think it's better that I stay in a hotel for a bit, don't take it personally. I'll be back soon."

He sat there in shock and sadness whilst I got up and went back to my room and started packing my bag again. I can come back in a few days fresh and new and approach Harry again, this has all happened too quickly. After I finished packing the bag, I left my room and headed back downstairs.

Y/N: "Do you um...do you want to the sweater back?"

H: "I'd rather you kept it."

I could tell he was trying to hold back his tears as well as he could.

Y/N: "I'll be back in a few days I promise."

I smiled at him and then opened the door and walked out.

H: "I love you..."

His voice was so quiet and small, yet I still heard him. I shook my head and started walking to the nearest hotel, which wasn't far away. I couldn't be in that environment a moment longer; I really needed time to recollect myself by myself. Harry really wasn't giving up on me so maybe I had to tell myself to stop trying to force myself to stop loving him and I should instead express my emotions?

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A/N:

sorry if it's like everything is happening very quickly. i'm trying my hardest and i want to finish this within 20 chapters. i hope you enjoyed this chapter, thank you for reading byeeee :))