Bloody Hands

13. Fear of what was coming.

Pov Elena

You aren't a burden Elena'' he said, and I shivered at his tone of voice. He was looking intensely at me, which made me look away. I felt my cheeks burn a little and nodded awkwardly.

'' uhm yeah fine. I will just follow you?'' I requested which he nodded on.

This day was really starting to get too long.

I followed him for a solid 20 minutes. He was riding fast, but I somehow knew that this wasn't his maximum. He was holding himself in, thinking I could not handle it. We both had parked and stepped out in the same time. It was a rich area for sure, every house in this street was big. The cars were expensive and I somehow felt uncomfortable. Dimitri give me a short nod before walking in front of me. I liked the idea of being behind him. There were bodyguards in the frond, which made me frown a bit. I knew that he was known in this world, but I didn't expect him to he this guarded. The bodyguards looked nervous when they saw us coming. I put a smile on my face out of respect, hoping that it would at least calm them a bit down. I did have pity with them, it must be boring to stay outside for so long. He opened the door and we both entered the big house. I could head Lorenzo his laughter which made me smile too. Dimitri signaled for me to follow and I simply nodded. We ended in a beautiful kitchen, which was decorated simple in black and white. The kitchen island was made of black marmer and I absolutely loved it. My eyes than met a beautiful young lady. She wore a big shirt, that was just covering her but. I promised myself to not judge her, giving her a chance before the negativity took over. Her eyes met Dimitri and she immediately stood up, taking big steps towards him before planting her lips on his. My eyes widened and I stood there in shock.

I never expected him to be in a relationship. Not that I was jealous, I didn't have the right to be. I was just confused, nothing more. I found myself looking away from my view, being lightly disgust by the make out that was happening in from of me. I looked at Lorenzo and give him a soft smile, before walking towards him and hugging him side ways. I felt his head on mine, his arms curling around my waist. '' How was your day?'' His voice was soft, like a soft, kind whisper.
'' I am tired'' I mumbled, closing my eyes and enjoying his warmth. I just realized how tired my body was. A yawn left my lips and I started regretting coming here. I just wanted to sleep in my bed right now.

The couple finally had stopped kissing and I felt Dimitri his eyes burning on my body. I put a small smile on my face, which was probably faker than it could ever get, and looked to the blond girl. She had everything I didn't have. She had a big chest, large hips and a small waist. She looked so female, making me feel like a little child.

'' Tori, this is my sister Elena. Elena, meet Tori, Dimitri his girlfriend''

I nodded while looking at her. She didn't seem very interested though, her eyes being fixed on Dimitri his face. Her hands were wrapped around his arm and I could see that Dimitri was tense. His veins were showing again and he didn't look to happy. His eyes were boring in mine, trying to find anything. I hated the fact that he could do that so easily, it made me feel weak and fragile.

'' We made pasta''  Lorenzo spoke, ending the awkward silence.

'' I made the saus baby''  Tori chirped proudly. I wanted to roll my eyes, but controlled my actions. No judging, not right now.

'' Let's take a seat'' Dimitri mumbled and Lorenzo lightly pulled me
with his own body. I took place next to him, on one of the black chairs.

Not even fifteen minutes later, they were talking with each other about their college years. Tori met Lorenzo and Dimitri on the first class and they became soon really good friends. I didn't speak much, actually not at all. I felt invisible, as if I wasn't here at all. Playing with the food that was in front of me, I looked through the big window. It gave me a beautiful view of his yard. It was dark outside, as if it was pulling me inside a different world. Everything was going fine, they were having fun while I was in my own mind, till I heard that name again.

My eyes landed on Tori and her eyes widened.
'' I am sorry baby, I forget to shut up about Leo'' Tori pleaded and kissed Dimitri his cheek. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I could not take this right now.

'' I am really sorry Elena, it must be awkward to hear about your ex''
My eyes flew open and I looked shocked at her. Did she really knew my privacy?
I wasn't even surprised anymore.

'' Oh don't worry Tori, we all have our bad exes don't we?'' I hit back.

'' Could I use the toilet?'' I asked bitterly. Before Lorenzo could speak, Dimitri nodded. '' Follow me'' he said simply and took a step away from Tori. I rolled my eyes at his reaction.

'' Lorenzo can show me Dimitri, don't bother''

Dimitri stood up, ignoring my comment. I rolled with my eyes before following him. I held my head low while following Dimitri, only seeing his feet. He stopped, which made me look up. '' the second door on the left'' he smiled at me. '' Thank you mister Ryu'' I said bitterly before walking past him. He opened his mouth to say something, but I closed the door before he could speak.

We didn't do anything and I knew that, but it did make me feel guilty somehow. If I knew that he had a woman, he shared a house with, I would not dare to get close to him. I wouldn't clean his hands and let Rosa do it. Looking at the big mirror, I sighed before placing my hans on the sink table. I opened the tap and took a deep breath. I knew that I needed to slow down or this would end badly. A lot of things had happen and I choose to ignore them, fooling myself.
Hearing Lèv his name coming out of that woman made my stomach turn upside down. Leo cheated on me with a girl like her. A heavy sigh left my lips.
I just didn't want to go back to the place I came from. I washed my face a couple times, putting my wet hands on my neck. I felt my eyes burn lightly. I was going to get an attack soon if I didn't do anything about this. I could feel my body and mind going backwards. The memories of Lèv opened a gate, which I tried to hard to close. 

I grabbed my phone out of my pocket and opened Lorenzo his chat.

attack , home pls

I closed my eyes and tried controlling my breath. The fact that I didn't eat properly today made my body feel even weaker. I opened them slowly when I heard knockings on the door.

'' Elena, open''

I left the breath I didn't knew I was holding before unlocking the door. My eyes met Lorenzo his ones, with Dimitri on his side.
'' Please'' I whispered, knowing I was going to break down if I would talk.

Lorenzo his eyes filled with worry and he nodded. He wrapped his left hand on my waist and helped me walk to the front door. '' I will grab my phone'' he mumbled after making me
sit on the stairs. I closed my eyes, not wanting to meet Dimitri his. Mine lips started to tremble and a shaky breath left them. I gulped down, the lump in my throat becoming bigger. My mind was filled with his laughter. Lèv found again a way to be settled in my mind and I absolutely hated it. '' please, go away'' I mumbled to myself, placing my hands on my ears. My knees starting to shake, my whole body losing it.

I felt two big hands on mine, and opened my eyes  immediately. '' Let's go'' Lorenzo mouthed before helping me stand up. He mumbled something to Dimitri before helping me in the car.

Once we started driving, I lowered the window and took a deep breath. '' It's happening and I can't help it'' I whimpered. The tears were going down my cheeks. My mind was a mess again and all I could feel was fear.

Fear of what was coming.