my bestfriend's brother {DISCONTINUED}

Chapter 43: Where Are You?

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a/n: here's the long awaited update u guys have been begging for LOL so sorry it took so long but i just hope everyone is staying safe and staying inside during this pandemic especially if u live in the U.S. this stuff is very serious and i want all of u and ur family members to be healthy❤️ luv u guys

Angel's POV:

days. weeks. months went by without hearing from her. everyone was worried, wondering where she was. worried if she's safe or if she's even alive. it's been two months. two. since anyone has ever heard from her. even her parents and her siblings were wondering where she could have possibly gone. no one knew anything. the police couldn't trace her. she just disappeared out of thin air.

all of us were gathered in my room. noah, cameron, april, finn, and chloe. it was silent for the most part. cameron and finn were sitting on the floor whilst zoned out. april and i were sitting on my bed trying to some type of sense out of all of this. chloe was trying to calm noah down and noah.. noah was a hot mess. his legs were bouncing whenever he would actually sit down or he would be pacing around the room, biting his nails in the process.

"noah, sit down." chloe said. he didn't listen. "noah, si-."

"this is all my fault. this is all my fault." noah kept repeating. "why haven't they found anything? can't they trace her phone?! her footprints?! something!" noah exclaimed, clearly frustrated about the situation we're in.

"noah, things like this takes time." i said to him calmly. "not two months!" he yelled.

everyone was silent.

"i need some air." he said as he quickly exited the room and closed the door behind him. "i'll go after him." chloe said. "no, chloe i got it." i said to her. "are you sure?" she asked me as she furrowed her eyebrows and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. "yes." i replied. she nodded her head and sat back down while i got up, brushed myself off, and mentally prepared to talk to noah. i left the room and walked out onto our porch and spotted him.

Chloe's POV:

"why is noah blaming himself for heaven's disappearance? it's in no way his fault." cameron suddenly said.

"that's just how he is. he blames himself a lot. he even blamed himself when heaven cheated on him. he kept saying 'i could've been better'. i just hope he gets out of that type of mindset." finn explained.

i was partially listening to the boy's conversation when i noticed that the only one who hasn't spoken this entire time we've been here was april. she was spaced out looking out of the window while fumbling with her fingers. i decided to walk over towards her just to see what was on her mind.

"hey, you okay?" i asked her sweetly. her head shook like she was just awakening from a trance or a daydream.

"yeah, i'm alright. i'm just worried and hope we find her." she replied sadly. i knew something was off with her i just didn't know what. i decided to keep trying.

"yeah, i'm worried too. you seem distant, you feeling okay?" i asked while rubbing her back trying to comfort her as much as i can.

i can tell when someone is lost in their thoughts. lost and can't find a way out and they feel trapped, scattered even. i can tell because of my own experience. i wish i could've been comforted the way i comfort others. maybe, just maybe.. i would be normal. not always on medication. not everyone tiptoeing around me like i'm going to break at any minute. just normal. i don't want her to feel that way ever. i always put myself before others and i never received the same energy. i never look after myself. she doesn't deserve to be feeling that way. feeling alone and stuck with overthinking all the time wondering if it's even worth moving onto the next day..

i could be wrong though.

"yeah it's just.. that this reminds me of my dad. he went missing for a year and they found his body buried into the ground in the woods. he was murdered and they still haven't found out who did it. his murderer is running around this world freely without punishment but my mom and i are stuck suffering. it just isn't fair. i hope heaven is okay." april said to me.

i was shocked and upset for her. i felt so bad.

"i'm so sorry that happened, no one deserves that or deserves to go through that." i said sincerely while pulling her into a tight hug.

april didn't respond, but she hugged me tighter than ever. finn and cameron joined in, turning it into a group hug.

"i love you guys," cameron blurted out.

"we love you too," we all said at the same time.

Angel's POV:

i walked towards noah and plopped down next to him. i didn't even say anything i just wrapped my arms around him and pulled him close. it was quiet for a few minutes and to be honest i've never felt more at peace. no matter how much shit was going on between us or in our lives just holding him while listening to the birds chirping and the slight breeze gave me a sense of comfort, like it was a sign telling me everything is going to be okay.

"don't blame yourself for something you can't control. it's not your fault at all. we don't even know what truly happened." i said to him softly.

i heard him sniffle indicating that he was crying. i hated seeing him like this. in distress. it was frustrating because he's been like this for months. i hope he can get out of this funk and stop thinking that everything is his fault.

"i just feel like she might've ran away because of me. or worse she could've been kidnapped. she could be held hostage right now. we don't know and that scares me a lot angel. especially the fact that the last time we talked ended in an argument. i should've cherished her more." he said sadly.

"noah don't talk like that. we're going to find her and she's going to be okay. the only thing we know is that a few of her clothing items are missing so she most likely ran away. we're going to find her i promise." i said while rocking him back and forth to get him to calm down.

noah sat up abruptly. he looked at me with his sad eyes while i was wiping tears from his face. "everything is going to be okay. you're okay." i kept whispering to him repeatedly. he nodded his head and finally started to calm down. suddenly he leaned forward to kiss me. i turned my head just in time for him to miss my lips. i didn't want him kissing me just yet.

"noah, please don't make decisions like that based off your emotions. you get like this when you're distressed. i only want to kiss you when you're fully ready and stable." i said softly and as kind as possible.

"but i am ready, angel. it's been two months i'm sure that's enough time right?" he tried to assure me.

"yeah, two months of agonizing pain. the reason we're here altogether is because of heaven not because of us. this isn't the smartest decision to make. we can figure out our situation later, but for right now i truly think we should just focus on heaven."

noah didn't say anything. he just nodded his head and walked back into my home.

i sighed and looked up at the sky.

heaven where are you? come back please. noah needs you.

pun of the chapter: what kind of shorts do clouds wear?

thunderpants😉😉😉😉😉

that was a lame one LMAO see u guys in the next chapter❤️