Anna's pov :
"So. I don't know how to start this off..." He says as his voice trails off.
"Why did you stop talking to me?" I say, relizing I shouldn't of asked him the question until he explained other things.
He looks me in the eyes and sighs.
At this moment I could tell all of the changes that happend to Luke's features.
He had grown taller, his hair was brushed up into a quiff and not flat anymore.
His eyes were the same.
He had more mucles then before.
He definitely had grown, and for some reason seeing all of these changes made me uncomfortable. Like I should have been there to grow up with him while these changes were happening. I too had changed, and I can tell he was surprised by my changes as I was with his.
"I uh..." He began to say as a tear formed in his eye.
"Well?" I say, now tears forming in my eyes as well.
He looked at me and shook his head, indicating he didn't want to speak.
"Just tell me." I say more fiercely.
"Anna, I don't want to hurt yo-" He starts but I cut him off.
"Hurt me? Oh Luke, only if you knew what hurting someone felt like. When you left, that hurt. When you ignored me, that hurt. When I sat at home staring out the window waiting for the god dam day you would come home, that hurt me! But what hurt me the most was that you fucking promised me that you would never forget me! And you did forget! You forgot all about me! You left me alone...." I choked out, now hot tears were falling down my face. But I wasn't finished talking yet.
"We never broke our promises. From the day we met, when we were five, we promised to be bestfriends forever.
And every day, every week, after you left, you never left my mind. Because that promise we made when we were five, still floated in my mind, reminding me that we were still going to be friends forever. When people said 'Oh Anna you will get over it',
I never did. You were my bestfriend, someone who was there for me when no one else was! And then when you left, I never was the same anymore. Because I fucking needed you! I was bullied, and tormented and made fun of. And I had no one to go to when I needed help. I had all of these weird thoughts about cutting and hurting my self because of them and I just, Fuck! I was actually starting to have feelings for you too! But, I needed you, and you promised me! Luke you promised..." I said now crying harder then I have ever cried in my life time.
"You promised." I said in between my sobs. My face was now buried into my hands, I couldn't take this feeling. It made my stomach turn and I felt like puking.
I'm just glad I got that off of my chest.
After 5 minutes, I take a deep breath and look up at Luke. His knees were tucked up under his arms and his head was down low, he was obviously crying.
He sniffed a bit and looked up at me and stared me in the eyes. He bit his lip as tears rolled down his cheeks. He quickly moved over to me so we could hug. I put my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly as his arms wrapped around my waist tightly too.
"I'm sorry Anna, I should of been there. Im so sorry. I'm such a fuck up! I'm such a fuck up!" He yelled and I cried even more.
"Anna, I never forgot about you. I should of been there for you like when we were younger. I missed you so much, fuck I needed to be there. I wanted to be there." He adds.
"Then why did you act like you ignore me?" I questioned, and our hug releases.
"They made me." He said as he turned his head back to the door and back to me.
"The other boys?" I ask and my eyes widen as I whipe away tears.
"No not them, modest made me." He says.
"I was going to come home to see you, it was the time when me and Alisha broke up and I just needed to talk to you about stuff and our tour and everything, I tried a few times to leave to see you but, every time I tried to leave they came to me and told me that of I tried to talk to you or see you during the rest of that tour, that I would be kicked out of the band." He adds.
"But they can't kick you out. You and the boys have control over that." I say.
"Modest controls everything. I wanted to break thier stupid rules. And now it seams I have bent them." He whispers.
"What about this year?" I question.
"I stopped trying. I gave up on trying to see you anymore. It broke my heart, but I had to stay strong, for myself and the boys." He answers.
"I see." I sigh.
"Is that how you really felt?" He questions.
"Yeah. That hurt like a bitch." I say and tears start to form in my eyes.
"That's terrible. And it's all my fault that it happend. You got bullied, and I should of been there to help you. You had thoes thoughts and I should of fucking been there to help you through it. I promised you something and I didn't keep it, and no matter how many times I may say sorry, nothing will fix what I have done. It kills me knowing how I made you feel." He said as a tear formed in his eye and fell onto his gray shirt.
I look over at luke as tears fall down his red cheeks, he was looking straight ahead. His gaze soon goes to me and he puts his hand on my cheek and whipes a stray tear from my cheek. I look into his glossy blue eyes and climb up into his lab and sit there. With both my legs put to the side,
I wrap my arms around his neck as his arms hold me. I bury my face into his neck and smell his scent on his shirt.
God have I missed this smell.
"I forgive you Luke." I say quietly.
"I won't hurt you ever again." He whispers as I look up into his eyes. I watch as his eyes dart back and forth from each eye.
I knew what was going to happen now. We would probably kiss. And honestly, I was ok with that. I needed this. I need to calm down my thoughts, and I needed to live my life.
He leans in towards my face and we were inches apart. I felt his breath on my face,
I bit my lip as I watched Luke's tongue lick the bottom of his.
My heart quickens as he leans in closer and closer until our lips touch. The kiss was slow as our lips moved in sync.
He laughs a little and we keep kissing.
"Luke." I whisper in his minty tasting mouth as he kisses me harder.
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Hey guys! This one of my favorite chapeters! :-) hope you like it!
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WARNINGGGG! IN THE NEXT CHAPTER, THEY ARE GOING TO BE DOING SOME VERY ADULT SEXUAL THINGS, PLEASE SKIP IF YOU CANT HANDLE IT LOL
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