Raining Fire Chrollo X OC Nami

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Satotz was leading all the contestants through the foggy marshland. More running wasn't ideal to Nami. She was getting tired and very annoyed. She saw Hisoka separate and a group follow him. Nami knew they we out to kill him or at least get him to drop out but he was strong. And Hisoka could take all of them out with one swing. She minded her own business and kept running. It came to her attention that Gon and his friends had also separated. That caused Nami to worry.
Her eyes scanned the crowd. More and more people were falling behind and she could hear their screams. Nami knew if she were to get separated she would be fine on her own but she didn't want to take that chance. Instead she followed mindlessly behind Satotz.
At one point Nami spaced out. She kept running but wasn't paying attention to her surroundings. She was too busy with her own thoughts. She thought back to the troupe. How Machi, Nobunaga, and Phinks protected her like their little sister. How Uvogin and Shalnark would fight with her all the time. And how Chrollo... we'll what did Chrollo do with her.
The thought stuck in her head. Nami stopped running and just stared at the ground. Huh. She had never thought of it. What did Chrollo do with her?
All at once memories hit her head like a ton of bricks. Nami remembered Chrollo catching her when she fell from a ledge at the base.She was 11. Nami remembered when he brought her soup when she had a strange sickness. That was when she was 13. Nami remembered when she woke up one night sobbing.She didn't know why she was crying but she remembered Chrollo was right by her side in an instant. His gestures of kindness were subtle to say the least but they were there and they sure as hell meant something.
Nami's breath was hoarse but she steadied it. There was no one around her. She realized she had gotten her self separated from the group. Great. Just what she needed. Her being lost wasn't even her main focus. The memories of Chrollo were still present in her mind. Nami felt a new feeling that she only felt towards Feitan. Nami felt love for Chrollo. But the question of what kind of love. Was it her friendship\brotherly love for him. Or was it...
   No there is no way she could love somebody more than a friend. She couldn't. There was no way she could feel that sort of way. Just as the feeling arose in her it quickly disappeared. Nami pushed the thought out of her head and walked on trying to find the rest of the group.
   Nami stuck her nose in the air and took a deep inhale. At first she was met with Hisoka's scent. Nami knew he had gotten himself into trouble and wanted to stay away.
   The faint screams of men proved her point and she smiled evilly. Now onto finding the rest of the contestants. At last Nami's nose came to find the scent of Satotz. It was an old crisp smell but still very noticeable. She began to run after it.
The group had gotten farther than expected and it took her about an hour to get back. They had lost some more contestants but Gon and his friends were among them. Along with Hisoka who had Leorio lying unconscious next to him.
   "This man I swear" Nami mumbled to herself as she was walking over to Hisoka. Who upon noticing Nami sent her an evil smile and beckoned her to sit next to him.
   Nami walked over and opened her mouth to speak. Before she could utter a word Hisoka cut her off.
   " I assume you are going to ask what happened. And why this man has a lying next to me." He concluded and Nami nodded in response.
   "Well I didn't start anything this time." Hisoka started explaining. Nami gave him a look of disbelief which caused him to laugh.
   "I swear Mimi I didn't! They came to me! I had business to handle and they got involved. It was their choice and I decided to have my own test with them. They passed of course..... with flying colors" He dragged out seeming lost in though causing Nami to shudder.
   "We have a little while to go before the second phase Nami. Why don't you rest for a little while." He cooed into her ear making her feel like jelly. She sat down next to the clown, rested her head on the tree, and drifted off to sleep.
                                   ~Nami's Dream~
   Everything was white around her. She was in a white room. Nothing was out of place or dirty. Nothing was there to sully the perfection.
   Nami blinked her eyes and as she reopened them she saw the room was torn apart. Like it had just been through a grueling battle. The walls were covered in blood and half the wall was missing while the rest were in shambles. The room was also filled with an deadly persona. Nami looked down at her hands which were covered in blood and bruised.
   She made her way over to a mirror which was conveniently next to her. As she looked at herself she saw her hair was disheveled, her face boar scrapes and cuts, her lip was busted and above all her eyes were a dark red almost maroon color with gold around the irises.
   How could she have possibly done this. Surely she wasn't that powerful. The glass shattered in front of her cutting her body more.
   "You did this to us you fucking monster." A voice said above her. But nobody was there. The voice sounded like Uvogin but also like Feitan and Chrollo at the same time. There was no way she could have hurt them. Her friends no they were her family.
   Nami tried to find a door. A way out of the room but there was no exit. And the room was very high off the ground. She started pounding on the walls trying to break them. The voices started to return.
   " How dare you do this to us." Machi said.
   " We were nothing but nice to you. NOTHING BUT FUCKING NICE!" Pakunoda said. Nami fell to her knees.
   "You're a burden Nami. To all of us." Nobunaga yelled at her. Nami tried to cover her ears but the voices were so loud.
   "I took care of you, you couldn't do anything for yourself!" Feitan shouted at her. Nami felt tears run down her face. Her whole body was shaking.
   "Stop!" She yelled out into the abyss.
   "I can't take it." She mumbled out to herself. But the insults and jabs kept coming.
   "I SAID STOP!" Nami yelled so loud the room shook. There were no more voices. Everything had stopped.
   "Nami nobody wanted you her. Nobody needed you here. Go away." This time it was Chrollo's voice who spoke. He wasn't angry like the rest of them. His voice was calm. But his words were still sincere.
   "No. No. No." Nami repeated over and over again.
                                 ~End of dream~
Nami was twitching in her sleep. Which caused Hisoka to turn towards his friend. Her twitching became more fierce. At one point her arm twitched and hit Hisoka's face. Hisoka grabbed Nami by her arms and started to shake her awake.
"Nami wake up! I don't know what's happening but wake up!!" He yelled at her. Causing her eyes to shoot open.
"You hit me." He concluded. Nami didn't say a word she just stared at him intently. Her dream brought new thoughts to her head.
'Did the troupe think of her as a burden? Was all of that true?' It would make sense to her and she wouldn't be surprised. Nami took deep slow breaths her thoughts only growing.
Her family. All she has ever known. They didn't want her. Why would they she is just a child and still needed them to take care of her. She had never done anything herself and always needed help. Tears started to form in her eyes. Nami never cried. There was nothing sad enough to make her that upset. But to think of the people that were supposed to love and care for her not want anything to do with her broke her to a million pieces.
Nami looked down to Hisoka's arms. They were still rested on her shoulders.
"Soka..." Nami mumbled. That was her childhood name for Hisoka. His eyes locked with hers and he realized the seriousness of the situation. Nami pried her body from his arms and stood up. She wanted to get away from Hisoka even though at the same time she wanted to cry to him.
Hisoka didn't want her to leave. He wanted Nami to explain what had happened and why she was acting this way. He stuck out his hand to grab her sleeve but she was to quick and ran away.
"Shit" he mumbled to himself.
"The boss is going to be pissed at me for this"