𝙵𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝙰𝚛𝚎 𝙵𝚊𝚝𝚊𝚕

ᑭᗩᖇT ᑎIᑎᗴ

Toni

One month. One more month. Just one. One more to make the most out of my life. The remainder of my time on this earth, is 30 days. 30 days with the ones I love. 30 days to live. 30 days to go to school, and experience it all. It's too late. My time is up.

I ask myself, everyday... Why me? Why am I sick? Why did I get chosen? Why is my life the one to get cut short? Why was I born just to die early? Daily questions that go through my mind. At least I got to fall in love. Right? I wish I never met Cheryl. Cause then, I wouldn't have to go through the pain of losing her. Most importantly, she wouldn't have to go through the pain of losing me.

But that's the thing. Right? You don't choose who you fall in love with. You only choose to love someone as much as they love you. Loving Cheryl was my choice, losing her wasn't....

1 Month left

Toni

I looked horrible. I was really pale. There were bags under my eyes no matter how much sleep I got. My nose was red. I was also really tired and cold all the time. I also cut my hair short, cut the color out. I couldn't go to school, so Cheryl was bringing school to me, well the people at least. In the hospital. Yep, I'm back in this prison infested of sick people.

I was really not look forward to all of the pity everyone from school was bringing. Oh look at that poor sick girl! Oh look! She's dying! She's gonna die in one month! I didn't need another reminder. I felt like a teenage soul trapped in a 80 year old body.

As much as I wanted to live. I could barely get out of bed without help. Oh and did I mention, my body felt like I had just gotten trampled by a marching band. Twice.

I groaned as I sat up. "Any day now" I coughed out. I wanted to die already, but I wanted to stay for a little while longer for my Wife. I laughed a little as I thought of wife. Wow! We're actually married. With kids. Well scratch that last part. We don't have kids. But a girl can dream...

"Good morning Toni!" My favorite nurse said. The cheerfulness she had in her voice made me want to throw up. How could she be so cheerful? During a time like this? I was dying for gods sake!

"You know I hate when you say it so cheerful" I told her.

"Well how do you want me to say it? Like dark vader?" She said. "Good morning Toni" She said in her best impression of dark vader's voice. Which made me giggle a little. That was the first time I had laughed since Cheryl left. She had to go back to school, I hadn't seen her in a week. We still text, and call, and facetime but, it's not the same.

She typed on her computer for a little while before bringing me my daily pills.

"Why do I have to take these again? I'm gonna die either way" I chuckled.

"Well, actually... I don't know" she laughed. This was our sense of humor.

I laughed a little before putting the small cup of pills in my mouth and downing it with water.

"Alright, let me help you" She helped me into the bathroom. "I got it from here Cristal"

"You sure?" She asked.

"Yep"

"I'll be right out here" She said before shutting the door.

"Don't lock i-"

I locked the door.

"Guess not" I heard her say. I giggled before getting ready. For what you ask? To die.

You know how people say, that if they're going out, they're going out with a bang. Well I want to go out with a bang! And I think I know just the way to do it...