𝙵𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝙰𝚛𝚎 𝙵𝚊𝚝𝚊𝚕

ᑭᗩᖇT Tᗴᑎ-Tᕼᗴ ᖴIᑎᗩᒪ ᑕᕼᗩᑭTᗴᖇ

Death is the end.
Death is sadness.
Death is dark.
Death is light.
Death is the end of your short life.
Death is the beginning to your eternal life.
Death isn't the end.
Death isn't sadness.

Death is happiness.
Death is your final rest.
Death is your second and final beginning.
Death is your rebirth
Death is final.

I don't even know what to say anymore. The doctors told me that I will die sometime next week. The internet blast is still trending and I've gained some followers. I try to post every two days to give my fans some memories. My family has spent everyday here, including Cheryl.

Night time

Toni

I was sitting in my hospital room making tiktoks with Cheryl when the doctor knocked. "Hello, oh sorry, am I interrupting?"

"Oh no, you're fine" I say as I painfully scoot up in the bed.

"Okay, well I want to talk to you about some treatments to consider..." He says, closing the door.

"Okay, go on..." Cheryl climbs in bed with me and puts her phone down after posting the video.

After we go over a few things and me and Cheryl make a few decisions, the doctor leaves. Cheryl said she will support what ever I go with and in the end I chose to go with, euthanasia. If you don't know what that means, it's the painless killing of a patient suffering from an incurable and painful disease or in an irreversible coma. The practice is illegal in most countries.
(It's legal in this story)

So we went over a date, and we went with, next Saturday. Cheryl was crying and I was trying to calm her by whispering sweet things in her ear and playing with her hair. After a few minutes, she stopped crying and would sniffle every once and a while.

"I love you so much Toni"

"I love you so much too Cher bear"

1 week later

Saturday

1 hour before it all ended

We were both in each others arms crying. We kept saying 'I love you' to each other. We were holding on so tight to each other bodies, enjoying the warmth. Because soon, we would never feel it again. We made out for a while, savoring the taste of each others mouths. I've gotten lots of visits today, and lots of cards. Lots of fans even stood outside the hospital today and refused to leave. Eventually, it got late and they left. Some even tried to come inside. We were about to leave each other, forever. I made a little surprise for Cheryl, but we're not to that yet.

"I love you" Cheryl sobbed.

"I love you too" I sobbed.

30 minutes before it all ended

"Cher" I shook her.

"Hmm?"

"I need you to go home"

She sat up. "What?" She had tears in her eyes.

"You don't need to see me die, go home"

She hugged me. "I'm not leaving"

"You said you would respect my wishes..."

She sat up again. She silently shook her head. She buried her head in my chest and cried while I cried into her hair. After five minutes I decided it was time. "Now go" I said sitting up. She slowly got out of bed, I did the same. We hugged tightly. The last hug. She was so warm. I gave her a long deep kiss before giving her a note.

"Open this when you get the news" I croaked out. I put my hand over my mouth to silence my sobs. She hugged me once more and kissed me before leaving. I kept my hand there, sobbing into my arms. My mom, dad and belle walked back in. Belle ran up and hugged me. I screamed into her shoulder. She put her hand on my head as my mom and dad joined the hug.

6 minutes before it all ended

The doctor walked in. He told me that it takes 5 minutes to work. He put it in and I said my goodbyes, and drifted off to sleep.

This was it. The end of me. The end of my story. Gone too young.
Topaz out bitches!

- Antoinette Topaz

Cheryl

I left the hospital and ran. I just ran. I don't know where I was going but I was angry, angry that this sickness took her away from me. But I was also sad. Sad that I didn't have her anymore. It was cold out. But I didn't care.

I found myself at a bridge. I cursed and then broke down. I didn't have Toni anymore. I didn't have her hugs. Her kisses. Her pink hair. I didn't have the warmth her presence brought me. I didn't have the feeling of being whole with her. She was gone. And I was left empty, and broken.

I climbed up. I sat on the edge and looked into the view of the city. I looked down and saw the water. I stood up and felt the cool, crisp New York air on my face, in my hair. I stepped forward. But then I remembered "The note" I gasped, and lost my balance. Somehow, I managed to push myself to fall backwards and caught myself to land on my hands and knees.

I painfully got up. I was defiantly bleeding. And I walked home.

I walked up to my room. Sat on my bed. And I got the call. "Your wife died peacefully, I'm so sorry for your loss" I hung up the phone and sobbed into my pillow. Then remembered her words. "Open this when you get the news" I looked at the note. I started crying again as I opened it. It read...

Hey, it's me. By the time you read this, I'll be dead. But hey, don't cry. Not yet. I haven't started writing the note yet. You can cry, at the end. Cheryl, these past few months have been amazing, you've given me a chance to say 'I've lived' And I did it, with the one I love. You. I love you so much, and even though we didn't get the life we wanted. I want you to continue without me. I want you to live your life, go to college, kiss that girl you have a crush on. I want you to forget about me. Yep, that's right, forget about the times we had. Because I know, that if you don't, you'll never move on. Have kids, marry someone else. Travel the world. Without me. I want the best for you. This is it, forgetting. But not forever. Because one day, your kids are gonna ask for a bedtime story. And you're gonna remember, you're gonna remember my name. And the things we did together. All the memories. The laughs, and the cries. And you're gonna cry, at the memory of me. You're gonna think about how I should be there with you. When truth is, I shouldn't. My fate was sealed long before we met. But I'm glad we did meet. I love you so much my sweet, sweet wife. Always and forever. Until the end of time. Til death do us part.

Love,
Toni

Ps. (Open your closet)

I read the last line. "Til death do us part" I smiled at the memory when we first said that. At the park, after I had proposed.

"Ps. Open your closet?" What?

I walked over and opened it. I gasped. Inside was all the pictures Toni took while we were together. It also has Toni's sweater. I smelled it. "Still smells like her" I laughed. It also had a teddy bear. I pressed the stomach.

"Hey Cher, bear. I will always love you. Until the end of time"

"Her voice" I whispered through tears. I held it to my heart for a while before continuing. The closet had her camera in it, my favorite flower, and her perfume. The flower was already in a vase.

I laughed through the tears. "Thank you Toni, I love you too, until the end of time"