HER

Part Twenty

Asa

A week later, the marriage plans were already underway. And I finally mustered up the courage to tell Sierra and Darren about my upcoming nuptials.
They did take the news better than I expected, although not before asking a ton of questions.
But even though they are still suspicious over the fact that they have never met Kieran or even heard me mention him before announcing my marriage to him, they seemed to have accepted my decision and concluded that I was only acting weird because I didn't know how to tell them about my whirlwind marriage.

I just let them think that.

Everything was moving so fast because Kieran wanted the wedding to take place in a week.
And he was stoic in his refusal to move the wedding up. We even had a huge fight about it.

I decided to handle the issue of my dress personally. I already designed the most beautiful dress.
I was going to go all out. After all, I wasn't going to get a do-over for my first wedding ceremony. I might as well enjoy the moment.

I didn't know for sure how long we are gonna stay married. Kieran went to so much trouble to get me, I know he wasn't letting go of me anytime soon. But I still held a little hope that he gets tired of me soon and asks for a divorce.

In spite of my 'i don't give a fuck about love' facade, I actually wanted to love someone and be loved in return. My dream was to be with someone whom I loved beyond reason and who loves me just as much.

That was also part of the reason I broke up with Shawn. I didn't love him enough, at least not the way he loved me, and that just wasn't enough for me.
If we had gotten married like I knew he wanted, I would have begun to resent him down the line and I dreaded that happening.

Shawn was a good person and I cared about him.

I wished Kieran and I were a regular couple in love, I wished it could be so instead of whatever we had going on.
But I do not love him, in as much as I craved him physically.
And I know he wasn't in love with me, he was just an obsessed psychopath. obsession isn't love.

We only had lust between us.

The sex. I couldn't stop thinking about it, I think I was slowly losing my fucking mind.

He hasn't touched me since the last time. He barely even calls me anymore.

And anytime he does, it was always to talk briefly about the wedding plans, and that's all.

I don't know what his fucking problem was.

He's left me hanging and craving him, while he walks around unbothered. But I wasn't going to ask him a damn thing.

I hated him with every fiber of my being.
I don't know what's going on with him.

Why was he ignoring me? And why did I care at all?.

Ugh

I was supposed to be meeting with the wedding planner with Kieran's mother, but I was still currently at work in.

Working with Mrs. Preston has not been the best experience, but it has been a little bit bearable.

At least she hasn't said anything mean. she mostly just ignores me, which I prefer in fact. Because the next time the tries to come at me, I was telling her ass off.

I won't give a fuck about who the hell she was.

After our meeting with the wedding planner, I decided to go straight home.

I needed to take a breather.

I was standing by the sidewalk waiting for my car when Shawn called.

"Why didn't you tell me you were getting married?"was the first thing Shawn said immediately I picked up.

He sounded pissed. I did think about telling him but just didn't know how to.

"Who told you that?"countered, trying to deflect.

"Yemi told me"he answered "Now answer the damn question"

Of course, it was her.

"I'm so sorry Shawn"i said defeated.

I didn't know what else to say. When I imagined the different scenarios where I told him, none ended well.

"You're sorry?"he said coldly, " After everything we shared? So you were just playing me? just like the first time?Just when I thought....'.

Thought what?.

But he ended the call before I could ask. And at that moment I felt like crying.

The reality of what Kieran was doing to me immediately hit me. I was being awful to everyone around me just because of him.

I tried calling him back, but he didn't pick up.

I didn't mean to hurt him. I didn't want to hurt anyone.

Kieran

I was in my office going through some files when Hailey barged in unannounced. Kate my assistant trailed behind her.

Trying to stop her I presumed.

Here we go.

I expected as much, this confrontation was inevitable.

"tried to stop her..." Kate nervously with an apologetic look

"It's alright," I said, waving her off. My attention turned to Hailey as she closed the door behind her.

"How could you do this to me?" she asked furiously, tears clouding her vision s

I felt sorry for her. almost.

"Do what?" I asked just to rile her up as I casually leaned back in my chair.
Her eyes narrowed in anger.

"You were supposed to get married to me, that was the plan!" she yelled, throwing her purse at my desk in a show of anger,

"Not to whomever it is you are getting married to in a week!"

"Plan?" I asked slightly amused "I don't remember making any marriage plans with you"

"Whatever 'plan there was" I continued "was between you and my mother, not me."

"so you're doing this?" she asked, finally calm

"ok" she added "do whatever you want. But this doesn't end here Kieran, no man makes a fool of me"

Was she threatening me?

Women and their dramatics.

The thought amused me and angered me in the same breath.

Picking up her purse she walked out of my office, slamming the door on her way out.

I was aware Hailey was harboring grand thoughts of a happy married life with me during our time together.
Thoughts that were planted by my mother, but I just didn't care enough to set her straight.
Hailey was from a family of steel merchants with a family history that you'd think went back to the beginning of mankind with the way my mom always talked about it.

It was rather entertaining watching her prance around like she owned me, Just because I fucked her.

Whatever agreement my mother and her parents had concerning marriage, was no concern of mine.

Asa was whom I wanted. It was either her or no one else.

And I'll destroy anyone who stands in the way of our union.