I AM ABSOLUTELY POSITIVITY NOT GAY (Soudam)

chapter 3

I walked through a door into a room the had softly flashing lights and music, the colors were hot pink purple and blue mostly it seemed like one of ibukis house parties. My whole first period class was their and some people I didn't recognize. I walk over to Gundam and Sonia talking, they were standing by the punch. There conversation seemed to make sence but I couldn't get what they were saying yet the feeling of understanding was there. I grabbed some punch for myself and took a sip the fruity flavor was slightly of but it seemed fine so I continued to drink.

Sonia and Gundam walked over to some chairs after a bit and I began to feel... Like a cloud??? I had butterflies in my stomach and my chest was fluttering. Am I drunk? No it's just punch I can't be! I drank a little more and Sonia left my head was spinning in a good way and when I thought of Gundam my heart sped up and the fluttering was harder- and my pants felt warm. I walked over to him and he smiled softly, he was enjoying his time it seemed.

"Can I kiss you? " I said without thinking. No no I don't want that!!

"Uh-" His face heated I could feel it from here " If you wish too mortal... " I went next to him softly moved his face forwards mine and kissed him. My face was on fire and my chest was fluttering- I felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest- what is going on???

"Can I do it again? " He nodded and I pulled myself onto his lap. "Oh sorry I didn't ask to do this- I hope you don't mind" I grabbed his scarf and kissed him again I bit his bottom lip so he'd open his mouth so I could continue on. His arms slithered around my waist and pulled me closer- WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!- We stopped kissing to breathe our faces bright red he pulled his scarf over his face. And I slithered down his body-

*BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP* BEE-*

I slammed my hand on my alarm clock-

"WHAT THE HELL- WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??? " I whisper yell- jolting up. I am not gay- I am not gay I'm just not I can't be- i- am I? I run my fingers through my hair anxiously. It's really not the time for this I'll figure it out later- I was about to take a shower before I felt buzzing in my pocket I pulled out my phone to see a call from an unknown number.

"Mmmm... Hello? " My voice was groggy and tired.

"AHHA! IT IS I GUNDAM OVERLORD OR ICE! I DO BELIEVE THIS IS KAZUICHI SOUDA CORRECT"

"Mmmhmm..... " I blink staring at the floor my brain full if white noise-" How'd ya get my number? "

"THE DARK PRINCESS! OR AS YOU MORTALS REFER TO AS SONIA"

"Mmmmm ok.... How are you so damn lively at this time? And why are you even fucking awake it's the weekend? "

"WELL YOU SEE MORTAL I HAVE AN ARMY TO FEED"

"Good for you" *beep* I cut him off mid sentance, I can't do this this morning, I just had some weird ass dream of this guy and it's 4am. I make myself a cup of Joe and skip today's shower I'm not doing anything so it doesn't matter. I don't even have work today....

I walk down the hallway and too my room and lay on the bed. After a second of silence all of the thoughts of this morning seem to charge at me and knock me sideways.

Maybe I am gay? I'm not really interested in girls, I mean I do have a crush on Sonia but that's fake I just wanted to seem cool last year and it got way to weird and I gave up on it. How do I even figure this out? What if I watch some porn to see would that work? Well probably- I grabbed my lap top from my bed side table, putting in the password and getting on google-

*CNT+SHIFT+I* The keyboard clicked as I hit the keys and the usual white Google went dark. Before I go on to normal porn I just want to see the soft shit- maybe that'll answer my question.

Search bar:

Two guys kissing

Am I gay quiz

How to tell if I'm gay

This makes me feel like a hormonal 14 year old boy all over again I don't even know the slang for this stuff.

That's enough for this morning, I got things to do. I run down stairs to get started on cleaning the kitchen. I open the dishwashers and get started and my dad walks down stairs and starts to get stuff ready for an omelette, I'm guessing it only for himself-
*wack* did he just whip me with a towl? I'm just not going to get into it- he hit me another couple times and I felt anger ball up in my throat.

"Could you not? " My tone was kinda rude

*whip* "jeez you don't have to be such a bitch about it"

"Dad I'm really not in the mood-

" I don't give a fuck if your not in the mood your being such a bitch today! I just try to have fun with you-- and anyways I can do whatever I want to you I'm your father" This isnt the first time he's called me a bitch but it really hurts when he does, the kinda hurt that feels like it swirls around inside you. Mixing in with your being it hurts when it's from a family member. I just stayed quite and continued to clean.

(A/n: I'm not really happy with this chapter but it is what it is)