I accepted and embraced change even though I secretly wished for your return.
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"I will admit that it is hard for me to lose this friendship because it has a little connection to my faith.As long as I pray, I guess I will always remember you .Your question does linger in my mind for so long.Do you forget that you asked me if I offer my five times prayer?In a world where people talk about the glitters of dunya,talk about pleasure,beauty,and desire you talked about the akhirat. Maybe that's the reason why it is hard to replace a friend like you,that's the reason why I am clinging to you until now .That's why I stayed on our marriage and forced myself to claim a spot in your heart, although I know I don't deserve you" Zafiq sighed after reading Zaira's long message.A new message that being sent to him after she left him.She left him without saying goodbye personally, but just on messenger.But she was sending a message again, trying to repair the rift of their hearts.Zafiq didn't reply, he was tired of Zaira's warm and cold heart.Her unstable emotion confused him.
Zaira knocked on Zafiq's office door.
"Assalamu alaykum Zafiq"
Zaira entered,she was embarrassed to show herself after what she did
"Walaykum mussalam"Zafiq cold reply
"I--"Zaira's words were interrupted by Zafiq
"Did you receive my gift?" He didn't let Zaira finish her words.
"You signed it" They were talking about the divorce paper,Zaira asked for it on her last last message before she left Zafiq
"Are you happy?" Zafiq granted her wish,he processed her wife's undying request.
"I know everything about your marriage" Zaira ignored the coldness she felt inside the room, inside his soul,it made her shiver ,it was powerful
"What about it?" Zafiq continued to freeze his heart, oblivious of Zaira's almost frozen state.
"You married us for faith"
Zaira explained,she was full of hope.After contemplating and organizing her thoughts Zaira was able to unhide the reasons of Zafiq's marriage.The 1 is to 4 rule was Sunnah.This rule was created to purify the future immorality (with mistresses)and malicious gossip,to avoid fitna (while helping a widow or divorced woman),to elevate the rank of a woman(as a respect to them whether they are pure, deflowered or belonged to the world of prostitution),this was also to those old women who were struggling to find love.
Now it finally sunk into her that Lexi married Zafiq for happiness while Zafiq married Lexi to help her with her child, to be a father to Micho,he did this to purify the immorality committed by Zigar and Lexi.
Laiza married Zafiq for power,for wealth, while Zafiq married Laiza to support her and her children financially and even emotionally in a halal way
Elena married Zafiq for protection, while Zafiq married her to save her from her dirty world.
And now she was not sure why Zafiq married her, but she was sure that she married Zafiq for faith and love, and she believed that maybe Zafiq married her for faith and pity.She knew she belonged to the last category,an old woman who was struggling to find love.
"Are you bringing my gift?"Zafiq ignored his warm side,he wanted to be numbed at the moment
"You really meant it,I came here to apologize" Zaira stated
"You wanted me to let you go"
"Because I thought--"
"I am granting your request Zaira"
"And I wish I could redo that request"
"How does it feel to get what you want?"
"It's painful"
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Ratio of love: 1 is to 4
SpiritualOne of the hardest things in life was to share the heart of the man you love.The true test of sabr was to accept something beyond your comprehension. But... How would you react to a situation where you didn't know how and when to get out? Would you...
