Bullied, Scarred, and Hated (A TeamCrafted and JeromeASF fanfiction)

Chapter 16

"Get off of me!" I yell. I kept kicking and screaming but nothing was working. It was useless.

It was the night I was almost raped. This time Jerome wasn't there to save me.

My attacker was holding me down and I couldn't move.

"Please just let me go."

"Not so fast. I'm going to enjoy this," my attacker said.

He pulled off his mask and the face was all too familiar.

Ty.

I sat up trying to calm down. I was covered in sweat and I was breathing hard.

"Are you okay?"

I looked over to my left and Jerome was sitting up rubbing my arm.

"Yeah, just a bad dream," I responded.

"Want to talk about it?" He asked before kissing my cheek.

"No, not right now. I think I'm going to go get a shower though."

"Okay babe."

I get and look around to try and find my clothes. In the excitement of last night, Jerome had thrown them all over the room.

I located them fairly quickly and headed to the bathroom. I turned the water on and put my clothes on the counter before stepping into the burning hot water.

I kept trying to divert my mind from the nightmare but all I could see was Ty's face. It couldn't have been him could it? It was just a dream. It isn't real.

But what if it was Ty? He wouldn't do something like that would he? He was always nice to me.

I step out of the shower and wrap a towel around myself. Looking into the mirror I don't see the beautiful and sweet person people say I am. I see the ugly, depressed, fat girl I am.

I grabbed my makeup bag from under the counter and search through it to find what I want, my blades.

I told Jerome I threw them away and I did, but I kept one.

"I can do this. I don't need this," I told myself.

I dropped the blade into the toilet and flushed it. That was my last one.

I collapsed on the ground and started to cry. Sometimes I didn't have a reason, I just started to cry. And tonight was one of those nights.

There was a knock on the door followed by Jerome's voice.

"Babe, are you okay? What's wrong?"

"I'm fine Jerome. Just thinking," I sniffle.

"No you're not. I can tell you're crying. Please open the door," he commands.

I open it and just look up at Jerome. he doesn't say anything except he sits on the ground beside me. He was only wearing a pair of spongebob boxers.

"Real manly," I tell him.

He chuckles and looks at me. I can't tell what he's thinking.

"Parker, I want you to know I love you and that you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. I'm always going to be here for you. I wish I could have been there before. I hate myself every day for letting them do this to you. I'm not better than them. I did nothing," he confessed.

Everyday I loved this boy more and more. The way he made me feel special and loved warmed my heart.

"That is all the past. we are here now and we are together. That's what counts. You have helped me everyday get better. I'll always have the physical scars but your helping me heal my emotional ones. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Without you, I... I probably would have killed myself."

He wraps his arms around me and begins to rock me back and forth.

"Can I tell you something?" He asks.

"Can I get dressed first," I say while signaling to the towel in wearing.

"Oh, yeah. Of course, you don't have to wear any clothes."

I slap Jerome in the arm before he leaves to let me get dressed. I realize I didn't bring any any pants with me when I went to get a shower, but the sweater is fairly long so I think I'll be okay.

I go to Jerome's room and sit on the bed in front of him.

"What did you want to tell me?"

"So TeamCrafted has become really popular and we got a deal with this guy who is supposed to help us get more popular. to complete the deal all of TeamCrafted would move to Los Angeles and live in a house together," he told me.

Las Angeles? I would never see him again. This is for his job though. They have been waiting forever for this opportunity.

"When did you find out this and when would you have to leave?" I ask.

"Adam just texted saying it was official. I didn't want to say anything because nothing was certain but now it is. We would leave in about a month to two months or whenever they find a house to fit us all. I don't want to leave you but we have been waiting for this for forever."

I just nod. I couldn't lose him! What would I do? This meant Mitch would leave too. Then I would be alone. I would just go back to where I was.

We sit in an awkward silence until Jerome picks me up and slides me onto his lap. I wrap my legs around his waist and rest my head on his shoulder. I feel the familiar warm tears run down my cheeks and fall onto Jerome's shirt.

"Can we just wait to talk about this later? I don't want to deal with this now," I ask.

"Yeah."

Jerome buries his head into neck and plants soft kisses along the base of it. I move my head to meet his lips. Our kisses are sweet, slow, and passionate. I wrap my arms around his neck and he puts his hand on the small of my back pushing me closer to him.

I know we should talk about everything but I wanted to enjoy the time I have with him.

I couldn't lose him. I needed him.