TATBILB: College Edition

Chapter 12

So my roommates and Josh do not know I kissed Peter and I'm pretty sure that my roommates aren't gonna be that mad but then there's Josh he will not be fine by that. So I'm not sure who to tell first, if Josh or my roommates, it sure is a big problem. "Hey, what are you doing?" asked Chris. "Thinking about something." I said back. "Oh, what are you thinking about?" she asked. I sight and then I was like "So, the other day Peter came to the house to see the kids and we told each other a lot of what we're going through because of our break up and then... he...and....I kissed. I actually don't know how to tell Josh." she stayed silent trying to process everything I said. "So you kissed him back? If you did just tell Josh and be like... "Hey, can we talk please?" and that's your chance on telling him that you kissed Peter back."

The good thing is that Peter doesn't get to see the kids today so it won't be that complicated. I heard door open and I knew Josh was home. This is it Lara Jean, it's either Josh or Peter. "Hey, can I talk to you for a sec?" and he nodded his head in response. "So, whats up?" I took a deep breath until I said "Josh, the other day when Peter came to see the kids and you went upstairs we talked about our problems during our break up so him.... and I.... we kissed." and he didn't say anything or move so I thought he was gonna go look for Peter but then he asked "So, who do you love the most?" and that question was easy to answer because Josh and I have never said those three words. "Josh, I am so sorry but it's Peter who I love the most. And I'm sorry if that hurts you and I am so sorry that I lied to you...but I'd be lying to you again if I didn't tell you that I love Peter with every bit of my heart." he got up and left to the room quietly. 

My roommates didn't really care only Brandy was the one who said something which was "Why would you kiss him back? I mean I get it you still like him, but he cheated on you with that b*tch. Sorry Chris but I had to say it." and Chris just said "Oh, you don't have to be sorry for what you said I don't like her either even though she is my family, so don't be sorry."  and I just chuckled. 

I was about to call Peter when I saw that Josh was about to leave so I said "Joshy, I'm really sorry for what I did... I hope you can find someone way better than me at college." and I was crying so he came up to me and said "Lara Jean, you don't have to be sorry for that, I should have known that it's always going to be Peter and not another boy. So you go ahead take good care of Vicky and Vince and you take care as well, hopefully someday we'll see each other with our partners." and just like that he left and I burst into tears until I controlled myself  and decided to call Peter. He knew my voice so well that when he picked the phone up I just said "Hey" and he quickly asked me "Hey, are you alright? do you need me to come over and check on you?" and I chuckled and said "You can live with me if you want to." and I'm pretty sure he jumped up in excitement that he had to control himself and then say "What happened to Josh though?" and then I sighed and said "We broke up and he left the house with all of his stuff." and he asked "Is that why your voice sounded like you were crying?" and I giggled and said "You know me so well that even if I take a deep breath you know something is wrong with me. So you coming or what?" and he said "I am but I need to pack and then leave."