time to suffer again because I'm an angry god and ya'll are thirsty for kirizono content
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Kyoko woke in a cold sweat reaching for her wife, but like the past three months, no one was there. She rolled over and put her face in Sayaka's pillow, it still smelled like she childish strawberry perfume. Maybe if she just laid there until she died as well her heart wouldn't hurt as much, but the little girl across the hall would wake up in a few hours and the pain wouldn't be as noticeable. The last truly Sayaka thing she had, Hikari was the demise of Sayaka maizono. The idol could no longer dance so she was fired, and her already terrible mental health got worse. Though she never admitted it for a while she hated her own daughter, that feeling did eventually pass but it left her more broken. So just like her own mother, she took the easy way out. A rope around her neck and a bottle of antidepressant in her stomach, a perfect death for the world's favorite idol.
The detective took great care to never look at that fan, of course, she could just remove it and the problem was solved. But if she chooses to join her wife she would want to leave the same way, even if they didn't die together it would still be the same. So she only looked at certain angles in the mirror on the wall and fell asleep facing her wife's empty spot.
Up the hill and three spots to the right next to the cherry blossom tree was the final resting spot of Sayaka kirigiri. Kyoko remembered sitting on that hill when they were teenagers and Sayaka had taken her to visit her mothers grave, it was the first time she was open about her history of self-harm and depression. The thought plagued her mind as she set the toddler down on the grass next to the grave. " tell mama what happened at daycare the week while I change out her flowers." This week's theme was white, white roses, tulips, and some wildflowers they had seen on the way. In the three months since her passing Kyoko had not missed a week, she couldn't let Sayaka slip from their daughter's mind. So they brought new flowers every Thursday, most days Kyoko would tell a story from when they were dating or just talk about things she loved about the idol.
" your mama was very different, she wasn't always smiley and perfect that was just a face she put on because of her job. When she was a little older than you her mama, your grandma had the same sickness she did and she passed away as well. Grandpa Maizono was always working because that made him sad, so mama watched a lot of tv to keep her busy, and that's when she found out what idols where. That's the reason why I met her because her dream led us together. Her dream was to make everyone smile, but she couldn't do that anymore after you. Because she didn't want to do what her daddy did to her and having a baby changed her body so she could no longer dance the way she had to. Hikari mama loved you so very much, never blame yourself for what happened to her, mama would never want you to end up like her and grandma. If you ever feel sad tell me ok, ill make sure you get the help you need, I tried to help mama but she wouldn't let me. so please don't be like your mama band stay with me, ok?"
