Going home after this...but why did i go?

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Stars POV~

I was just sitting there crying my eyes out and just thinking of Andy yelling at me. I lifted my knees to my chin and just broke down. I started singing saviour to calm me down, but nothing worked. I just remembered that i have a razor in my pocket just in case i needed it to cut or something later when i needed it. I know i promised Ash that i wouldnt do it anymore but it felt like a good time. I took out my razor and lifted my sleeves from my sweeter and but it gently on my skin. I cut one then another and it kept going on until i started screamming. I felt two hands on my shoulders and saw it was Ashley. I droped the razor and huged him so tightly.

"Ashley...I'm so so sorry! I fucked up even more in my life and now its worse then ever! I didnt want to but it needed to....im so fucking sorry Ashley." i told him sobbing in his arms like i was a baby. He held me close into his arms. "Star, your okay. You needed to one last time didnt you?" he asked. It sounded like he was crying but i looked up and he wasnt. I nodded slowly and sniffaled a few times. He wiped my tears away and looked at my arm. "What do you say we go clean this up and i will yell at Andy? Huh?" e smiled and i nodded. He helped me up and blood was flowing down my arm slowly. We got back and everyone was yelling at Andy, but he saw me and my arm and stood up. Ashley gave him a look and he sat back down.

Ashley lead me into the bathroom and cleaned me up. He went out to yell at Andy for being an ass and CC came in to cheer me up. "Hey there little one..." he smiled and i giggled at him for calling me little one. "I'm not at little CC, im only 20." i laughed and so did he. "Well to me your little cause of how short you are." he patted my head and smiled, then he looked down at my arm and that smiled i loved went away.

I looked down and tears came to my eyes. I didnt want to cry again. CC came down and wiped my tears away, kissing my on the forehead and makeing me smile. I can hear Ash yelling at Andy about him yelling at me for not telling him where i was. I was with Ashley, hes like a brother to me, no more. A fucking dad to me. I got up and went to the beds, I got in Ashleys cause i was still made at Andy yelling at me. Ashley saw me hope into his bed and he gave me a nod to say it was okay. Andy left the bus and went out for a while. Well thats what i think, or i hope hes having a smoke. I just dont want him going away.

While i was laying in bed i was thinking of going back home. I think its a good i dea to go back for a while to see if things settled down. I got up from the bed and walked over to Ashley sitting on the coutch. "Ash, I want to go home." is all i said and everyone over heard, but not Andy he left for a while. As i guessed right. He sighed and he looked sad in his eyes. "If thats what you want thats fine, if anything goes wrong all you do is call us. Are you sure you want to go back to that hell hole?" I nodded.

Ashley took me home. I got out of the car and so did he. I went around to him and huged him so tight. "Thank you all so much. Your all my family. You are like a father to me Ash. I want  to thank you so fucking much." i started to cry and so did he. "Im going to miss you baby girl. And just text or call me if you need anything or if you want to come back home, with us." I nodded and gave him one last hug and a kiss on the cheek. "I love you Ash." i said almost breaking down. "I love you too Star." he replied crying. I walked to my front step calming down and waved bye one last time. He waved back and got into his car. I knocked on the door and my mother monster answered. She was crying and looked happy to see me. She hugged me and i went inside with her. I saw my sister and my dad crying as well. But everything was fine until i got knocked out by my dad with a hard object. I passed out when everything went black.

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