I Look Happy But, I Am Hurting Inside. I Want To Tell You, But I Can't.

Chapter 3

Emma's POV

My eyes fluttered open and I saw Nicholas next to me in a chair sleeping. I blushed and tried to talk. "Nic?" My voice was dry and a bit hoarse. He woke up and nearly fell out of his chair when, he saw me awake. "Emma! Are you okay?" I didn't know how to respond. I looked at him and he looked genuinely concerned. Why me? He shouldn't be concerned about a nothing.

I shrugged and sat up and hugged my knees and looked away from him. I swallowed and tears blinded me. I blinked them back and bit my lip. I felt him put a hand on my shoulder. I looked at him and he put a hand on my chin and lifted my face. "Emma. What is wrong?" I took my eyes away from his. I couldn't tell him what is wrong. It was stuck in my throat.

He sighed and hugged me. "You scared me, Em. I don't want anything to happen to you. You are such a happy girl. I can't afford to have your happiness taken away from you." I hugged him back. I wasn't happy.

I look happy but, I am hurting inside. I want to tell you but, I can't.

It was true. I wanted to tell everybody. I really did but, I just can't. He pulled away and looked at me. "I care about you, Emma. I really do. Promise you won't scare me again?" I smiled a bit. "Promise." He smiled and he kept staring at me. He leaned forward a bit and I did too. His eyes were locked with mine and I felt me breathing hitch. He leaned forward even more. I felt his breath on my lips.

My eyes looked at his lips and then, his lips crashed into mine. His lips were soft and puffy. They fit perfectly on to mine. I melted into the kiss and felt my mind go blank. I felt his hands on my waist and I put my hands on his neck.

We pulled away, blushing and I suddenly felt like I had a reason to live. I would never have thought my crush would actually kiss me. I smiled and pecked his lips. He smiled back and we got up and walked back to class together. There was a silence between us but, it was a comfortable silence. 

I felt his fingers intertwine with mine. I felt happiness bloom in my chest and my mind ruined it by putting Amber in my mind. She had a crush on Nicholas but, only because he was of royal blood and he was a model for various companies including 'Agreste Fashions Inc.' She would beat me till' I couldn't walk if she saw me and Nicholas holding hands. I pushed the though to the back of my mind. 

We got to the classroom and Nic held the door open for me. "Ladies first." I giggled and walked inside. "Thank you, Nic." I sat next to Willow and she nudged me. "Anything I should now about that happened between you 2?" I shook my head but, I could tell she wasn't convinced. The principle came in and the class was immediately silent. "Your teacher had to go home due to an emergency so, school is being let out early. You may go home." The class started cheering as soon as he left the room. I started to collected my stuff and the class bolted out of the room. I rolled my eyes and continued collecting my stuff. I saw somebody holding out my pens and I looked up and saw Nic. 

"These are yours?" I nodded. "Yeah." I put them in my bag and he helped me up. "Thank you, Nicholas." "No problem, Emma. We should probably get going." I nodded. I saw my brothers waiting for me and I waved at Nicholas. "Bye, Nic." He waved back and smiled. "Bye, Emma." I ran to where my brothers were waiting and we walked home together. 

I got home and my parents looked worried. Hugo and Louis just went to their rooms. My parents looked in my direction and now looked confused. "Emma? Why are you home so early?" "School let out early." My mom nodded. "Umm... we heard you passed out at school during gym." I nodded. "Yeah. I am okay now, plus..." My mind drifted back to Nicholas kissing me. I heard my mom calling me and she looked like she knew what was going on. I pointed upstairs and she got the message. "Be right back, Adrien. I need to talk to Emma about some girl things." We ran upstairs leaving my confused father and we jumped on my bed. 

"So... what happened after you passed out?" I grabbed a pillow and hugged it. "So, I woke up in the nurses office and Nicholas was sleeping in a chair next to my cot. I woke up and he told me he cared about and that he doesn't want anything to happen to me." She squealed and her eyes sparkled. "And?" I blushed. "He kissed me." She started bouncing. "Cheek or...?" I nodded and I pointed to my lips. She squealed and tackled me. "YOU HAD YOUR FIRST KISS!!! OMG!!!" She shot off my bed and started jumping up and down. 

I laughed and she hugged me. "Mom. I. Can't. Breathe." She let go and my lungs could take in oxygen. She calmed down and sat on my bed next to me. "Sorry. I was excited." I raised an eye brow. "You think?" She giggled and my phone rang. She understood and walked out of my room. I looked at the ID and it was Willow. 

I answered and she started yelling in the phone. "YOU SAID NOTHING HAPPENED BETWEEN YOU AND NICHOLAS!!! WHY DID HE JUST TELL ME YOU GUYS KISSED!" "Willow. Calm. Down. Right. Now." She stopped heavy breathing and I could hear she calmed down. "I didn't tell you because I was still trying to make sense of it." She sighed. "I understand." I giggled and I heard her dad call her. "I got to go. My dad called me. I love ya, girl." "I love you too, Willow. Bye." "Bye." She hung up and I sighed. 

I put my phone on its charger and I let my mind drift. I knew I was hurting inside. I really didn't care. I was pretty sure I was going to do something crazy. Amber was going to make sure my life was going to crash and I was going to not want to live. 

I shook my head and I let my eye close and soon I was asleep.