Return of the Spambook

gekdjsbx

ahaha im sad. really sad. like wow. i haven't been sad in a long time. i actually haven't felt anything strong in a long time either (apart from love ofc, i have a gf ofc i feel love) but like,, damn?? i??? ok??? i hate emotions and hopefully that vacation that im going on soon is gonna cheer me up. idk i wish i had different sides like thomas in sanders sides so i could figure out how to stop this stupid feeling and calm my anxiety down
also apparently it's very noticeable to my parents when im sad bc my dad was like "i don't like the way you are today, you're different, are you sad or something?" and he knows the reason so when he was leaving to pick my mom up from work he was like "don't be sad" and explained why i shouldn't be
and my mom was all like "did you know that face nerves/muscles are connected to how your brain works? you can cheer yourself up by just smiling" idk it didn't really work but she watched a documentary about it so i assume it's true. i appreciate that they care about me but im still sad and at least it's finally without a reason (there are two reasons actually)

ok im gonna change the subject now,
im gonna be in 9th grade soon and that's somehow shocking idk. i used to see 9th grade as something very far away from me (time-wise) and now im entering 9th grade. time flies i guess idk. i heard it flies because i don't experience anything new, but i don't really care about that ngl