Return of the Spambook

questioning my sexuality again

i think i might be demisexual? im still not sure
but like, i've only ever had two people i was in love with so far (still am with one of them hehe hi mack) and they were both people i was (am) very close to, like we had (have) a bond or something idk
but then again i have a bunch of fictional crushes, bUT i only ever actually get the crush when i get to know a character
it's not just bc of looks but their ✨personality✨ idk lmaoo idk im just confused at the moment

ok so mack, if you're reading this, do you remember how i made fun of kokichi and his fangirls? well i read and watched a couple of character analyses about him and now that i know him for what he is i lov him but like i kinda hate that i do because it makes me seem like a basic teenage girl idk im confessing my sins right now please don't judge me or i will be sad

also am i the only one who dislikes saiouma/oumasai? like the ship doesn't sit right with me for some reason. and it's not jeaaalousyyy because i lov nagito too but i also ship him with hajime and chiaki

ppl are also saying that the dr fandom is super toxic now but i stay on the non toxic side of it😎✨i have not seen any of the bad things people talk about (like hating on ships and calling them toxic when they aren't, spamming ship hashtags and hating on characters for no reason), i've only seen people talk about how these things r bad and that people shouldn't do them and why but i've only seen positivity so far,,,,and funmy memes

ofc i've seen some people call kokichi their uwu rat boi which isn't ok (bc that's a slur japanese people got called in ww2 and anime characters are japanese unless stated otherwise) but that's all the bad stuff i've seen from this fandom really. so yea im enjoying my stay in this fandom idk about y'all but im gonna stay bc i like it here😎✨