Pure Bliss

16.

Days were passing quickly. I was surprised when Joey showed up at my door step with flowers asking if he could take Nick and I out. I don't know why, but I agreed. The date had gone alright. He spoke of the case and said the man they had was out on bail until the court date. The other people they hadn't found. That made me scared. I would just take extra precautions to make sure Nick was safe. I had been to a lawyer and had my will done a few days ago. With this past experience, I needed to think ahead. Everything went to Nick of course. And if anyting happened to me, he would go to Macy. She had wholeheartedly agreed.

After talking about the case, Joey and I had nothing to really talk about. Nick came with us, and he didn't really pay much attention to him. I wasn't exactly enjoying myself. When he dropped me off at home, he went to lean in to kiss me, but I turned my head. His lips landed on my cheek. When he pulled back, he looked a little confused, but left it alone. I wasn't into Joey. I didn't want to be with him. I wasn't going to settle for less. Never had and never would. Even if that meant spending the rest of my life alone.

I had bought the horror book to read and ended up wanting to burn it. Everything was going fine and dandy until the last two people not to get murdered fell in love. Stupid. Love was everywhere but with me. Nick was still all I had. I desered love, right? I felt selfish thinking like that and decided going on another date with Joey wouldn't hurt. I mean, maybe I did have too high of expectations.

The date was boring. That was it. I mean, I wasn't even nervous enough for something bad to happen where someone was hurt and sent to the hospital. That shows how much it sucked. Don't get me wrong, he was nice and did everything perfect, but nothing was there. No spark. No chemistry.

At the end of the date I decided to tell him it wouldn't ever work. I just couldn't do it. If it's not there, it won't ever be there. I gave it another try and it failed miserably.

After I put Nick to bed, I came back to the living room where Joey was situated. I had put a baby monitor and camera in the room so I always had an eye on him. It wasn't good for me to keep moving him all the time while he slept.

"This isn't going to work Joey. The dates were nice and all but I'm sorry." I whispered as I sat in the chair.

He nodded, seeming to expect it. "I understand, and honestly saw it coming."

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"You can't like me or even try to when you are in love with someone else. Even a blind man would be able to tell."

I looked at him like he was crazy. "What are you talking about? "

"I'm talking about that Keagon guy. He's a fool, you know?"

I shook my head not knowing what he was talking aout.

"Hell, I can tell he loves you too. But something is holding him back. I don't know what would. You're amazing. If I would of known you before you got pregnant, I wouldn't of signed any of those papers, Claire. You're perfect."

I didn't know what to say. I was dumbfounded. "He can't love me. He won't even talk to me anymore."

He chuckled, shaking his head. "I just gave you a great compliment, and that's all you heard? Of course!" He full on laughed as I blushed a deep red. How embarrassing!

"He's working nonstop on this case Claire. He won't stop until everyone of them is found. You can see it in his eyes. The pure determination. Its admirable, to be honest!"

I nodded. That I knew to be true. It's just the type of man he was. Right then, something came to my mind that I had been forgetting about.

"Joey? Did you fix up my house when I was in the hospital?"

He shook his head vigorously. "Hell no! You went crazy on me for mentioning even giving you a dime. I stayed clear of it."

I nodded again. "That's what I thought." Stupid man. Once I get my hands on Keagon.....

"Although, I do want to talk about one thing?" Joey started again.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Child support." I went to say I didn't want it, when he held his hand up. "It's not for you. It's for him. I'm not ready to be a dad, and I know I could never be a good father. I work too much and travel all the time. I'm not saying I want my rights back. Nick deserves better than me and I'm sure one day he will have it. But child support is any biological fathers obligation. Don't use it if you don't want to. Put it up and save it for colloge. But I will send it, and he will get it."

I nodded my head again, and said okay. We talked a few more moments, before he headed for the door and left. He was going back to Washington. I laid in bed for a few hours thinking about everything. If Macy and Joey didn't fix my house, that left only one person. Keagon. If he thinks he can just bust his way into my life, make me fall for him, and then walk away, then he was surely mistaken. He had another thing coming.