back to you {chapters 1-4 out now}

•𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑒𝑒

   𝐜 𝐡 𝐚 𝐩 𝐭 𝐞 𝐫 • 𝐭 𝐡 𝐫 𝐞 𝐞 : 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲

it's unreal how easy it is to cover up how sad pyou are. for instance, here i am, at this party i got invited to, pretending that i'm living my best life. despite it being too crowded, i feel apalone. i search around for a familiar face in hopes of having someone to talk to, but no one i know seems to be here. except for the person who invited me, of course. "niall, who is all here?" i shout to him as he's standing around, inspecting everyone. he shrugs. "i really don't know to be honest" i slightly laugh. "anyone you know?" i ask. he gives me a guilty look. "w-what is it?" i ask. "h-he's here?" "who?" "harry" he lets out. my heart skips a beat. i will be honest, i haven't heard his name in forever, only in my mind. "oh" "maybe, you can talk to him! he thinks about you a lot" "how do you know that?" i ask. "he keeps to himself, taylor. he doesn't talk to anyone, he's always sad, he's been this way since the split" i nod. "tell him that i'm sorry" i rush back into the crowd. i can't believe he's here, right now. i begin to feel anxious. i'm starting to sweat and feel dizzy. "i-i'll be back" i say to whoever is beside me.

i run to a dark hallway and lay against the wall. i knew it would be a bad idea to come here. "tough night?" someone says to me from the other end. "yeah" i sigh. "too many people" they laughed. "yeah, i agree" "there's someone here i've thought about for months, but i'm too scared to face them" "why?" "because he doesn't love me anymore, i screwed up" they feel silent for a moment. "um, well, i hope you find this person" "me too" i sigh. they stood up and disappeared back to the party, and i sat alone. they sounded so familiar, so warm, so peaceful. i wish i could've talked to them more. they seemed like they had been there, if only.

i decided that for the rest of the night i would sit in the hallway and wait until it's over, which sounded pretty good in my head, until it was over.

"i'm leaving" i shout a niall. now, there's fewer than 10 people. i wrap my coat around my arm and approach him. "okay, thanks for coming" i smile. "pleasure" "oh, nialls got a girl!" someone shouts behind me. i turn around, and it's him. he's there. his hair has gotten a little longer, but everything else is the same. "oh, uh" he tries to speak. "hey" i mumble. "h-hey" "um, yeah i'm gonna go" i run out. it's crazy how he's been on my mind constantly, and i seem him again, just like that. "hey, hey!" someone shouts as the cold air rushes through me. "yes?" i ask. they grab my arm and look at me. it's him again, it's the closest i've been to him in months. "i was the person in the hallway" "y-you?" he nods. "i know who you were talking about, and, well, i want you to know that they still feel the way they did about you months ago" i stare in disbelief. this can't be true, i thought he moved on. "but-" "i promise they do, and they know you messed up, and they forgive you" he looks into my eyes very seriously and i can't help but fall for him all over again. i nod. "okay, okay"  he smiles. "he loves you" he begins to walk off, but i still stare at him, it can't be real, it has to be some type of dream or maybe it was someone else and i'm too sick to realize it.

i tug at my t-shirt as i lay on my bed. tears stain my cheeks and the phone was ringing. "hello?" selena picks up on the first ring. "sel, he-he was there" "who?" "h-h-h-harr-" she interrupts me. "oh, taylor" at this point i wanted to cry. "i'll be right over" i nod, despite her not being able to see me and hang up. i lay back on my bed and look up at my ceiling. his words, his voice, his eyes. it all came back to me as i sat there. i hope selena will be quick, because i need to get it all off my chest.