Un-Payed Debts (A BVB Fan-fiction)

Chapter 13

When we got back on the bus, I went to our bunk and closed the curtain. I needed some time for myself to recover from what happened. I always had to take a while to collect myself after something like this happened. 

"Ana? It's Cc. Are you okay?" He asked, tapping lightly on the outside of the bunk. 

"I'll be fine." I said quietly.

Cc pulled the curtain open a little and peeked in. I motioned for him to come in and he did, closing the curtain behind him. Cc didn't say anything but instead pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around him tight and squeezed my eyes shut, trying to keep tears from escaping. 

"Hey, what's the matter?" Cc asked, rubbing my back to try to calm me down.

"I'm sorry. I'm just shaken up from earlier." I said, pulling away from Cc and looking him in the eyes.

"Everything's okay now." He said as he took my hands in his. 

"I know. I just always have to take time to collect myself after something like that happens. I have to calm down and think about everything. Some people are completely fine after something happens but I'm not that strong. I could have lost you and if I did, I couldn't live with the fact that it was my fault I wasn't there in time." I said, my voice cracking at the end.

Cc hugged me again, causing tears to fall. 

"Those people aren't strong. They're cold. You saved all of our lives and if you had lost me, it wouldn't have been your fault. Don't ever think it's your fault. I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too." I said.

I buried my face into Cc's shoulder and we sat like that, in comfortable silence, for almost an hour before the guys called to us that dinner was here. We went out and sat on the couch with the other guys, eating dinner. 

"Thank you for earlier Ana. You know. Saving our lives." Ashley said after a while.

"It's my job." I said, not wanting to think about it. 

"Are you holding up alright?" Jinxx asked.

"Fine." 

"We're all here if you want to talk." Andy said.

"I said I'm fine!" I said angrily.

I stood up and walked to the bathroom to take a shower, hoping it would calm me down. I couldn't get out of my mind the thought that this was my fault. I was the reason the guys could have almost died. I was the one putting them in danger. I couldn't be here anymore. 

I got out of the shower and went to our bunk, putting everything I had with us in my bag, which I put in the closet. I'd leave tonight while the guys were asleep. I got to work writing a note to Cc. 

Cc,
I'm so sorry this had to happen this way, but it would've been too hard to leave otherwise. I'm done putting you and the guys in danger by being with you. There are so many people after me that one wrong move and you could be the target instead of me. I can't live with that. I love you so much and hope you understand and forgive my actions. I don't want to leave, but I have to. I hope you understand. 
I love you,
-Ana

By the time I had finished, I was crying. I folded the piece of paper and put it under my pillow for later and went back out to the guys. Cc held his arm out, pulling me next to him and kissed my cheek. I tried not to cry since I knew this would all come to an end soon. 

"I'm sorry for storming off guys." I apologized.

"It's alright. We get it. It's tough." Jake said.

We all decided on playing a few games of Uno to get our minds off earlier. Cc won a game, Ashley won a game, and Andy won two. After a few shots, the guys decided to finally go to sleep. I pulled the note from my pillow and put it on the kitchen table. Cc and I went to bed. 

"I need to use the bathroom." I told Cc, climbing over him to get out of the bunk. 

"Okay." Cc answered, unaware of what was going on.

I closed the bathroom door and walked down the hallway, taking my bag from the closet and slipping on my shoes. As quietly as I could, I opened the front door and slipped away. 

The hardest part was over now. I walked down the dark empty street on my way to the airport. I didn't know where I was going. Just away from here. As far away from here as possible. 

I was walking down a particularly dark street when I had to cross. I was almost in the middle of the road when I heard a loud screech of tires and was blinded by bright headlights. I froze and couldn't get my legs to move as much as I tried.

Before I could register what was happening, I was thrown through the air and landed hard on the cold asphalt. I let out a sharp yelp of pain before watching the car drive off. 

I could feel blood on several areas of my body and taste the metallic liquid in my mouth. Every part of my body was in immense pain as I tried to move. The car was long gone and I yelled for help but no one was around to hear me. A couple seconds later, everything around me faded and I was left in the middle of the road in complete darkness.