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it was 12am. chanhee woke up in a jolt. tears streaming down his face. "cha-changmin."
he tried to process everything. but his head was pounding and the tears won't stop.
it was almost real. he felt it, he felt his arms around him. he felt his heart beat. he felt the pinky tangled with his.
he looked at his wrist. changmin really was his soulmate. but the universe had to be damn fucking stupid and ruin everything.
he was a sobbing mess. he missed his touch. he missed his voice. he missed being in his arms. he missed him. the real changmin. the changmin who loved him as much as he loved him back. instead he was left with an empty space and a gaping hole in his heart.
it was suffocating. he couldn't breathe. he needed air. he headed to the balcony, his hand covering his mouth, muffling the sobs to not wake his mother up.
he looked up at the night sky scattered with stars. so beautiful, yet so sad. "we can't even be under the same fucking sky."
he looked down. thirteen stories down, was the cold concrete. it was tempting. then again what even is the point of living if you'd be forever alone?
not even processing what he was doing, his foot climbed up the rail. tears still falling down, both of his feet moved to the other side of the rail, only his hand holding on stopping him from being with him.
being with him, yeah, to finally be happy with him. his eyes met the inside of the apartment. "i'm sorry mom. i know you're struggling to take care of me. now you'll finally be happy and do whatever you want. i love you."
he looked up to the sky. "i'm not breaking that promise. i'll find you in the next life and fix everything. please wait for me." fingers starting to come loose one by one a sad smile formed itself in his face.
"i love you, ji changmin."
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idk how to write angst i'm srryalso if you ever feel like you can't take it anymore, please, talk to someone, talk to me, my dms are always open. i know it's hard to open up and i know that life is shit but let's keep fighting, we never know what will happen in the future. the smiles and laughs we would've have missed.
i'm always here for you, and so is your friends, and your family. even though you may think that they aren't but they do. they love you.
know that you aren't alone.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHH
let's be strong and keep fighting :)
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Fanfictionin which choi chanhee watches the love of his life fall for someone else choi chanhee + ji changmin ©JAETOORU all rights reserved