Bts one shots

Pain. Taehyung

(Got this idea from the wish I were heather song :p)

Taehyung POV

I take a deep breath in and let out a shaky sigh as tears fall down my face. I try to be quiet I don't want to wake up my brother Jin who is sleeping across the room from me. It hurts so bad why aren't I good enough? I hate having emotions I can't even get them in order and now I'm left in pain. My boy crush and I have been talking for a while. His name is jeon jungkook he was the bad boy in school. I have been crushing on him for a while now. He broke my heart today I'm so stupid. He lead me on Saying how he loved me and wanted me to be his. I believed him for the longest time too. That is until I went to visit him at his home. It wasn't unusual for us to do so we were pretty close. When I knocked and didn't get an answer I looked through the window and saw my best friend on the lap of jungkook. My heart shattered Jimin had been my best friend for as long as I could remember he helped me through a lot. I let out a choked sobbed remembering the times we spent together. He was my best friend how could he betray me like this....? My parents died in a car accident when I was young so Jin took care of me. We had to move to a whole new city I lost touch with all of my friends. It was scary being in a new place not knowing anyone but Jimin approached me and gave my life meaning again. Jimin would come over and we would hang out together. Jimin came over and cheered me up when I was upset or when it was the anniversary of my parents death. When I tried to kill myself Jimin talked me out of it and told me how much he cares for me and how much I mean to the world. That was all a lie...... I curl into myself trying to run away from the deep dark hole that was opening up In my chest again. Why would he do this to me?! He was the one who showed me to jungkook! He introduced us he introduced me as his best friend well that was a lie.. it's my fault. I'm not good enough. I'm not as pretty as Jimin. I'm not as skinny as jimin. I'm not as talented. I'm not enough... I'll never be enough.. maybe I should lighten the burden on Jin and leave..? Jimin and jungkook were the only things going for me. Why aren't I good enough?! I clenched my stomach my crying is making my body ache. I shouldn't have trusted so easily I shouldn't have fallen In love so easily. I should have noticed how close they were. Jimin wouldn't hang out as much as he used to he would claim he was hanging out with a friend. Some days Jungkook wouldn't text me at all he said he was busy. They would hang out together a lot at school they were always together. Jungkook would always compliment about how pretty Jimin was and never compliment me. Sometimes he would call me ugly... he's right Jimin is way prettier than I am.. I try wiping the tears but they keep coming. I caught Jimin wearing his clothes all the time and when I asked if I could he told me I was too big. I'm not good enough.. I should join my parents... I bet they miss me... I sob into my pillow I didn't do anything when I saw them I came back home and went straight into my room. I went past my brother and his boyfriend on the couch and went straight to bed. I cried for about an hour before my brother came up and asked if I was okay. I didn't say anything and pretended to be asleep. Eventually he went to sleep. I don't want to trouble him I'm just a burden him he has enough problems. I bite my lip trying to keep in any noises. I usually am a silent cryer no matter how sad I am. Tonight seems different though as I hear Jin get up. I hold my breath not wanting to make anymore noise. He walks to the side of my bed and stops. I stay silent till he leans down and hugs me tightly. I sit shocked for a moment before all of my emotions hit me like a truck. My eyes water and I slowly wrap my arms around my brother sitting up and cry into his shoulders.
"Why would he ever kiss me...?"
"I'm not even half as pretty.."
"He gave him his sweater... it's just polyester..."
"But he likes him better...."
"I wish I were jimin...."

(I'm sorry it's short I've been having writers block a bit and I can only write at certain times please bear with me and thank you guys for blowing this up it's up to 550 reads thank you so much!! )

Happy birthday jungkook 🥺