12:25 am
I think my body forgot that I have work in the morning and I can't sleep. I told J to talk me to sleep and his response was "so I'm boring" lol so I guess I'll be here until I'm tired.
I don't have friends to be honest. Most of the people I talk to I met them on the internet and I've never met them before. I guess they're my long distance friends. They're all guys which is probably not a good thing but who said I can't have guy friends? They all know about J. Sometimes I think I run them away because j is always a topic. I don't know if guys like to hear about other guys all the time but hey. I wanna talk about j so I'm gonna talk about J.
I literally tell J everything. I tried not to tell him about my story but here I am speaking on it lol.
I'm 3,000 words in on my story. His response was what story lol. Ohh you just don't know.
My story will reach millions of views and soon after I'll start my YouTube. I want J to be a part of that too. Not only will it help me but it will help him too. J asked what made me want to write a story and I said I don't know, but really it's for him. This is for j to read someday. And to tell my story
When I'm here I can control what happens next. Hell i'm writing the story and I'm wondering what's gonna happen next. I didn't know I was gonna keep writing.
3:19am.
I'm still up. I just smoked a blunt so I should be sleep pretty soon. I guess I'll play some music until I fall asleep. I just wanted to write something before I went to bed.
I read something on Instagram so now it got me thinking like life is really a learning experience. You choose what you learn about. To your best of knowledge I suppose. And I don't know it's jus some people are.... "different". I don't think that anyone is the same. Everybody is different. The skin color is different and the hair is different. The lips, the eyes, just the way we were put together. But that's who we are. Physically that is. Physical or visual? Whatever it's called. You as in you today hell..
3:35 am
Goodnight
7:34am
As I thought I woke up late and now I'm speedy Gonzales to get to work. My little brother D'marco also works with me too so I have to pick him up too. I told him to be ready at 7 and I didn't show up til an hour later. So that's my morning start.
8:40 am
Pulled up at work and smoked my blunt as I do before work every morning. My boss came to my car and I noticed he had his ears pierced. He's like 40 and I think it's funny. But I guess I'll start my shift.
1 thing I like about coming to work is they feed us however many times we want to be fed.
-Last night I didn't eat anything so my stomach was growling going to bed. I couldn't go to sleep. J was at work so I called him and we talked on FaceTime until I fell asleep. How? Not even 5 minutes of being on the phone and I was already sleep.
