Crush On You || Exo Suho FF

The outcomes of the confession

Hello, hi, annyeong!

Now it's already July 2020. It has been around 8 months since I last updated this book. Within these 8 months too, I've been going through a lot of up and down. (Pandemic too! Please stay safe everyone!)

If you remembered reading previous chapters about me confessing to my crush. I have an update for you!

Basically, we didn't talk for about three months after my confession. Sept until December.

However, in January, we kind of make up to be friends again. Not that much, just started to text each other again, briefly. Just to keep in touch. It's not bad to be friend again with your ex or excrush, trust me. But it's dangerous if you still have a tiny teeny weeny lingering feelings for them.

That's what happened to me.

We started with chit chatting a bit, since we already graduated from high school and had a low chance to meet each other again.

Then in February, we had a dinner reunion at a hotel. That night, he approached me first and I tried my best to keep talking to him, although it's awkward. He started to tease me again like he used to before. To be honest, I kind of fell for it too. I admit that I didn't fully move on yet, but I can pretend to be in front of him.

He was such a jerk. We admit that. But I can't control my feelings.

After we're done with the dinner, I was taking a selfie with my ex-classmate, a guy too. I didn't realize at that time, he was staring at me. When I finally saw him, he was about to say something but then he kept his mouth shut and walked away.

My friends told me that he was actually trying to ask for a picture together (?). I'm not sure if that was true btw.

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A couple months passed by and we naturally became closer through chatting. We mostly talked about Netflix and Kdrama.

Till these recent months, we started to get really close. We started to call each other, talked about his ex and my favourite K-actors and such. He undoubtedly started to tease and flirt with me again like he used to before. He was jokingly asked me if I wanted him to pick me up from my house and go on a date together. Or he would joke about showing up in front of my house with food. But we both were not dare to do so😂

I was kind of surprised at how we turned out to be, furthermore after what had happened when I confessed to him. It was almost like, we forgot what used to happen to us before.

During 5 years of our friendship, we rarely called each other. Rarely, okay. But now we are so used to call each other, ask how each other are doing, and randomly talk about anything.

I still find it weird but I can't deny that I'm actually happy. I admit that I'm still craving his affection.

Till last week, we accidentally met each other at the beach. This time too, I was having a photoshoot for a product. I came with my aunt. But he drove his car with his friends just to chill around.

My aunt parked her car besides his car. When I got out of the car, I saw him coming, walking from a distance. I waved to him, smiling and pretending that I was fine when I'm actually not. My heart was beating so fast😂

I was kind of panic, so I carried out my photoshoot and tried to ignore him. I looked behind and saw him taking a video of me. I wasn't sure what he was doing at the time by the way. Only until I was back home, I realised that he sent me the video that he edited with the soundtrack 'lonely'. 😂

Since I was doing the photoshoot alone, I was struggling. The tree was tall and I am really, really short. I can't put the product on the branch by myself. It kept falling.

Then I heard a voice, "Do you need some help?"

It was him. I nodded and he helped me to put the product on the branch and took a few snap of it. He was teasing me again about how short I was. I was realllyyyyy shy and don't know how to respond since his friends were there too. But I just laughed it out.

After a few minutes we bid goodbye to each other. I kind of regretted it because we didn't have a chance to take a selfie together. Our outfits were matching too! and that was the first time we met each other after the reunion, and could have been the last chance for us to meet since we both will part ways to further our studies.

Urgh I hate myself.  I should have be more courageous😩

But maybe that's for the better. We will part our ways anyway.