Angst One-Shots || BNHA

6; Todoroki Shoto

Inspired by: "Wonderland" by Anson Seabra

TW
Suicide, slight mention of physical abuse

|1st Person|
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I'd been in this place for months and people come and go; I'm one of the minorities that's stayed for over a couple of minutes to a few days.

This place— we don't exactly know what it's called, but we do know that where we are is the space between life and death. The place where we get final judgment.

They say that I'm probably in a coma. I've heard bits and pieces of what they would talk about. It was just a bunch of medical stuff and possibilities and all that.

This place was silent, being that we were all unconscious in the world of the living. I hated all that noise anyways.

I'd been hoping for a while now that I would pass, that I would be set free. It was nice here, but the possibility of living through this was a constant bother.

By now, I didn't even remember how I tried to end it. Was it blood loss? Hypothermia? Overdose, jumping? No idea— not anymore.

All I remembered from before my coma (besides the reason I wanted to die in the first place) was a boy shouting at me to get up and screaming for assistance. The buzzing in my ears and my blurring, darkening vision overcame his voice quickly. Then I was here.

I noticed that the fresh cuts and bruises I'd had when attempting were healing well by now. It was weird to see since I constantly had new ones and was always in some kind of pain. Now they were leaving and I was finally left alone.

I still felt stuff here. I wasn't numb like I would be in the afterlife, which was sad. I committed suicide so I wouldn't have to feel anymore.

At least it wasn't as bad here. Father wasn't here. He couldn't hit me as he had before, my siblings and mother didn't have to deal with my burden of a life anymore, and UA didn't have to host such a failure for any longer. It was a win-win-win-win.

Then I saw light. It surprised me. I looked at my hands and realized that it was time for me to go. They were disintegrating into red dust, beginning to fly away. I'd seen this before.

When it was green, you lived. When it was red, you didn't. I smiled widely as tears came to my eyes. It was time.

I'd been judged.

I was free.

Goodbye, then...

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Word count: 417

Yeah, Ik it's short, sorry XD