lighter

Chapter 5

I wake up and it's 1:00 am I'm really scared what if someone saw me running? what if they come ask about my dad ? What is school going to be like tomorrow ? I try to stop thinking about all of this but I'm still going through with all of this the next person Is Christian for never loving me and making me fell like I wasn't good enough for him I go to sleep whenever I wake up i plan all this out I grab a knife and go when I get to school I have flower every time someone dies from our school everyone puts flowers and bears in front of their lockers I get off the bus and everyone was crying but me I saw Emily not one tear coming out of her eyes I see Christian grab her by her hips from behind and kiss her he is so gonna feel the pain he's made me feel after school I follow Christian to the field house and into the boys showers I watch him undress himself he has big strong arms and a nice pair of abs he turns on the water and he lets the towel go I go slowly to the shower as I'm heading over there some guy comes out of the restroom and says "hey you can't-" I stab him in the stomach damn it! he messed up the whole plan I hear Christian turn off the shower "jake you in here?" Fuck I don't know what to do I hide in one of the showers "listen I know you wanted me to go over last night but Emily called me... Jake babe you can't be mad at me forever I'll suck your dick her babe I just can't have anyone knowing I'm gay." What Christian is gay? Fuck! I hear Christians wet feet stomping on the floor as he walks "com'n babe it was just one-" I jump out of the shower and ran the knife through his neck and he falls to the floor I watch him bleed out I grab Christians arms and run the knife through his wrists hopefully the cops are dumb enough to believe he killed jake and killed himself afterwards I put a chair against the door so that no one could come in I grab some napkins and hold the knife to where none of my fingerprints could get on the knife I put as much soap on where I grabbed the knife I go over to Christian and put the knife in his hand I go out the back so that no one could see me and go through the woods that are behind the field house and take the public bus home agin