wrest

silkworm in cocoon

"Nooooooooooo" I screamed out seeing Jhoshi trying to get out of bed and run away from there.
"Naina, Naina relax he's just doctor Jhoshi..why are you afraid of him Naina....your safe... I'm here..." Suriya said trying to explain me that things were in  place. But I was not in a state to listen to him for I knew what he was.  My resistance to look at Jhoshi and still be calm was far gone much before I realised myself.

"He's a cheat Suriya, he raped me. He threatened me to co-operate with him else he would just kill you"

"What!!! Naina...are you okay??! Jhoshi isn't so ..like what is it your telling me Naina... I'm completely..." He couldn't just complete his sentence.

"No Suriya, he's not someone who you know, why would I lie to you Suriya!!! He's a bloody rapist. He threatened me to kill you if I would co-operate with him and since you were the only person I hd....  And ...and you are the only one I trusted always... I couldn't just help it....I tried to counterpart him but my mind and body wouldn't just co-operate...!!! Please Suriya belive me...!!!" I cried trying to make him believe my words..

"What!"said Jhoshi in a very chill tone. "What on earth are you talking about!? Why would I even touch you Naina, that too for the purpose other than treatment. That is just ridiculous!!!!"

"Suriya just don't believe her. She's got completely mad and she's trying to bluff . She completely lost it Suriya. She's needs a psychiatrist right now!!!"said Jhoshi throwing the stethoscope to the floor and laughing.

And suddenly the atmosphere in the room  became so freaking furious that even the room that I lived in, for so many days like, a  silkworm in the cocoon, now wants to come out of that miserable and pityful life.

Didn't know what was wrong with me that day, but one thing I was sure of was that I was going to break Jhoshi's head and guess what I actually broke the head of a famous doctor!!! A 20 year girl, broke the head of a 50 year old doctor. Actually I never felt he was a doctor. I would rather call him the rapist, who did everything to a vulnerable girl who was the same age as his daughter!

But yes! I broke his head. Nothing he said hurt me that day, except for claiming that I need a psychiatrist. He tried to divert Suriya's mind but saying I was mentally disturbed!!!! That just triggered me the most. Hearing that I was weak and needed mental assistance, wasn't something I needed to hear that day.

Just before he stopped his bloody laughter, I threw the saline bottle at him which also pulled the needle that was embedded in my nerves for days, hitting him straight in his face and he fell to the ground.

Suriya, completely clueless about what was actually happening didn't even bother stopping me nor helping Jhoshi get up from the floor. He stood there still, trying to understand what was going on.

I rushed back to Jhoshi with a loud scream. I just didn't care what was happening, I just wanted to smack his head and I did. I hit him with whatever I found, kicked him so hard that after everything, I just felt a sign of relief in my heart.

Had Suriya not stopped me that day, maybe I would have been in jail accused from murdering a doctor, or in my words, giving a rapist what he deserved.

That day, indeed was the best day of my life after months of painful metamorphosis between those four walls. Yes, it was metamorphosis, just like the silkworm, my change from a depressed helpless girl to a girl brave enough to break the guilty head, was done.