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"After that day, I would never go more than a week without the bittersweet relief of cutting. It became my coping mechanism. I didn't realise that it was making everything worse. I started to become weaker. I fell behind in both school and dance class. Even so, I continued for over a year."

Jimin sighs at the memory and Jackie gives his hand a small squeeze.

"It was a boy from my dance class that put me to my senses."

Jimin feels a small smile form on his face at the thought of said male.

"I often showered at the dance studio after class, to avoid home for as long as possible. No one else used the showers there, so it was a perfect escape."

Jackie nods in understanding and the younger continues.

"One week, I had been cutting more than usual and as I was showering, I passed out. Cutting, exercising and stress is really not a good combination. I must have made a loud sound because a boy from my dance class, who always stayed behind to use the empty practice room, heard me fall."

"Even though we hadn't spoken much, he took care of me. I woke up wrapped in a towel on a bench in the changing room. He comforted me as I threw up and made me eat something. He must have seen the scars, but he never mentioned it."

He looks to Jackie and she gives him a weak smile.

"He sounds like a lovely boy."

"He was. After that day, we both stayed after the dance lessons. We had a lot of fun together. He never once asked about the incident in the showers."

Then, Jimin's face falls.

"But after a few months, he had to move... I will forever be grateful to him."

Jimin sighs heavily and continues, Jackie listening intently.

"I was devastated when he was gone, but by that time I had found Taehyung."

A genuine smile forms on Jimin's face. A loving smile.

"I fell for him immediately. He was kind, goofy, adventurous and extremely handsome."

Jackie watches fondly as Jimin talks about the one he loves.

"That boy you've been coming here with... it's him, right?"

Jimin nods.

"We became very close friends, fast. I didn't have the courage to tell him about my feelings, I didn't have the confidence. I was just a broken boy with a broken home. I was incredibly thankful for our strong friendship, though."

Jimin smiles.

"When I was with him, I would forget. I would forget my father, the pain, all the things that were my hurtful reality. He made me forget, even if just for a little while."

"Another year passed, I turned seventeen and my mother got pregnant. I was shocked to say the least. I never thought I would get a sibling."

Jimin inhales a shaky breath.

"I felt so much guilt. My mother was pregnant with that monster's baby and she didn't know him. I could never tell her, though. She wouldn't be able to leave him either way, his hold on her was tight, she would never be able to survive with the money she made by herself. It would only cause her worry and pain knowing the things he would do to me and not be able to do anything about it."

"Even though I hid it for her peace of mind, I couldn't shake the constant guilt. It only became worse when my father didn't stop drinking and abusing me even after we knew of the baby growing in my mother's belly."

Jackie shakes her head in disapproval. She can hear the pain in Jimin's voice and is beyond distressed hearing about what he has gone through.

She keeps quiet though, not wanting to interfere with Jimin's story and Jimin is grateful.

"By the time I graduated high school, she was over eight months pregnant. Summer break started and I spent most of my time with Taehyung and checking up on my mother."

"About two weeks after graduation, Taehyung told me he loved me as more than a friend. I was over the moon."

Jimin chuckles softly, remembering the shock and excitement that he felt that night.

"But then... my father called. My mother was giving birth and I had to leave Taehyung in a rush. Good timing, don't you think?"

Jimin chuckles again, bitterly this time.

"I ran all the way to the hospital... that night, my mother passed away in front of my eyes."

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(a/n: you know what's coming... I really don't wanna write this TT)

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