𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒-𝐓𝐎𝐌 𝐇𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃

~Explaination~

When he sees the blue bruises on my arms he freezes.He looks sort of angry. I pull my sleeve back over my arm and put my jacket back on.

Tom doesn't look at me.He just stares at then ground.I don't even wanna what goes through his mind.

"He did that, didn't he." He says and I sigh. "That's why I'm here.I ran away." The cold air blows against my cheeks and I can feel my face getting red.

Now he turns to me and looks me directly in the eyes. "How long has this been going on?" I look away.Im ashamed.

I used to be strong.I used to be able to protect myself from people like that.Not anymore.My Mum always told me to know my worth. Especially in a world like this. I should have taken her more seriously.

„Look , you dont have to go deep into it.I know things like that are traumatizing and its hard to process but i just want to help you." our eyes meet again and i smile lightly. „You have to know that you're not alone with this.Not anymore."

I really want to tell him.I want him to know everything about me.I want us to be just as close as we used to be.

„When I came to Germany i felt alone.I didn't want to make new friends.I just wanted to be alone.That worked for the first month or so.Then Jonas came." my sight get blurry and i can feel the first tear rolling down my cheeks.

Tom lays his hand on my face and stops the tear. The warmth coming from his hands is a nice contrast to the cold London air. I look back into his eyes.Thy seem to shine.I dont know what it is. Maybe it isn't even there and im just being crazy.

„He was the nicest guy when he first sat down next to me in class.He made me laugh.The first time after Mum and Dad died."

Im such an idiot.I shouldn't have thought he could be right.I just fucked my life up even more.

Now my tears start rolling again. More and more. It get harder to breathe. He hugs me and i just cant hold it back anymore.

„Its my fault. All of it is my fault.I shouldn't have trusted him in the first place. It my fault. Mum and dad would still be here if i hadn't-„ „Stop!" he says and lets me go.

Now he puts both on my hands on my wet cheeks and forces me to look at him. „It is not your fault!Okay? You didn't know this was going to happen.You could not have known."

I try to calm myself down. I take deep breathes and try to focus on the sound of the city.

Tom pulls be back into his arms and i close my eyes. He is warm. Not like Jonas. He helps me when im down. He doesn't blame me for what happened 3 years ago.