I am no longer in the light nor I am in the dark. I'm somewhere in between, between this light and dark, this depression and happiness, the ups and downs.
The rollercoaster. I'm not even sure I'm even me anymore. Who do I see when I look in the mirror? It it me? The real me or the "other" me. The me that is is always fine and happy. Or am I the me that shows her emotions? Or do I simply have a stone cold heart?
Some days are brighter. Some days are darker. Some days I don't even know. Some days I don't know myself. The roller coaster is taking another crude turn, speeding faster and faster and faster.....
And that the rollercoaster ride is over. Granted I've never been on a very big or very high rollercoaster. So my comparison might be off, or not even real. I don't know what a real rollercoaster is like, I only know what the emotionally rollercoaster is like.
2020 was a year of many up and many down, of in-betweens and pools of doubt. 2020 was a rollercoaster ride. 2021 will no doubt be another crazy and emotion filled year.
Adios 2020. Welcome 2021.
