Forever (Imagine BTS 8th member)JIMIN (Book 1) **COMPLETED**

Pt31

I open the door and saw Suga I instantly hug him and cried. He just hug me back. He didn't say anything he just rub my back. He push me inside the washroom and lock the door.

He just comforted me without saying anything. He waited for me to calm down before saying something. " I would not ask anything but whenever you are ready to tell me what's going on I am always ready to listen." He told me. " Gumawo Oppa!! Mianhe I lied to you!" I told him he is just looking at me keenly. "I told you that I would stop liking him that I would move on. But I never stopped. I don't know how I tried and I tried but this wouldn't stop!" I told him pointing at my heart.

"Aiggoo Sammie~ah why would hide it from me? Why would you suffer alone I am always here for you and you know that!!" He told me. " I know Oppa. Mianhe I just don't want to be a burden to anyone." I told him.

"You will never be a burden don't ever think about that." He said and he hug me. " What did he say?" He asked me.

"He said he has plans on dating Tzuyu!" I told him and my tears are threatening to fall again. " Well Sammie~ah he is a full grown man and eventually he is bound to like someone, What if you tell him how you feel?" He suggested. My eyes grew big "Aniyo Oppa I can't do that!!" I exclaimed. " I wouldn't know what will happen , I don't want it to be awkward and I am not strong enough to hear his rejection!" I told him honestly.

"Rejection? What makes you think that he will reject you?" He asked. " He would reject me I know it for a fact!" I told him with conviction. " What if he don't?" He asked again. I stood there quietly. It's impossible for him to have the same feelings. Ever since he only sees me as a sister. "Just think about it Sammie~ah. Maybe knowing his real answer will help you!" He said.

Is that what I really need. To hear it from him, to know his answer? I can't do it right now. I just can't tell him yet. I just nodded at Suga and told him that I'll think about it.

I washed my face Suga was just standing there waiting for me. "Do i look okay?" I asked him. "Your eyes are a little puffy otherwise you look okay!" He said.

I nodded and we went back to our dressing room. " Where have you been?" Jin asked us he looked at me. " Sammie~ah are you okay? Did you cry??" He asked me. " Yes she cried she was still overwhelm by our award." Suga answered for me. "Aigoo baby girl let's go home and order dinner okay." Jin said and I just nodded.

We all went home to the dorm. Jin and Suga ordered spicy chicken. We also bought soju,beer and soda. We celebrated our award with good food and booze.

I am now at a legal age to drink. So we drank soju bombs. I am a bit tipsy already. "Sammie !!?" Suga called me. " Nae?" I asked. "Can you play the guitar? I miss our acoustic night!" He said then he gave me the guitar. " Hahaha you miss me playing the guitar Oppa?" I told him loudly. I was strumming the strings to make sure that the guitar is still in tune. I was also thinking what I would sing.

(Imagine that Sammie is singing with the acoustic guitar)

As i finished the song I notice everyone was just quiet looking at me. I suddenly blushed my cheeks felt hot. I don't really want to be the center of attention. " Waee don't look at me I'm blushing!" I told them jokingly. I touched my cheeks and I notice it's wet. "Have I been crying?" I felt Suga hold my hand. Everyone was just looking at me. I looked at Jimin and I see him trying to read my expression. "Why are you crying Noona?" Gguk asked me. I wipe the tears on my cheeks. " Oh it's nothing I was just carried away with the song." I told them. "aaaahhhhh!!" Everyone said.

Then they started talking again. Jin took the guitar and started to sing. I noticed Jimin is still looking at me. "Excuse me!" I told them. I stood up and went outside our dorm. I climbed the stairs all the way to the rooftop.

It was cold and windy outside. I forgot to bring a jacket. But the cold wind comforts me. I feel warm anyways because of the liquor that I drank.

I let my tears flow no one can see me here cry. "Why can't this pain stop..I am tired of this!!" I said while crying.

"Sammie!?" Someone called me. I turned around and saw him.

"Jimin??".....

***chimmie***