A love and hate kinda story between Sammie and Jimin . A roller coaster ride kind of love story that makes the 8 member group hold on to each other whatever happens!
it's my first ever story that i would be making so please bear with me. Everything...
Sammie just left slamming the door behind her. I know that she is sad and disappointed about what I told her. It is indeed a jerk move to tell her that I used her because I am missing Tzuyu. I just don't have any choice but to make up an excuse. A dick excuse so she wouldn't ask any further. It's better this way than to jeopardize her relationship with Suga or my relationship with Suga too.
My heart felt like being stabbed seeing her face full of disappointment. I can't even look at her earlier that's why I kept on looking at my phone.
The last thing she said is still echoing in my head."The next time that you'll do that, forget that you and I are friends!" That bring chills all over me. That's the first time she ever threatened our friendship out of all the arguments we had in the past. The way she said it with the most coldest tone I have heard from her, I could feel the anger in every word.
"Mianhe Sammie~ah!I could not be selfish!!" I whispered in the air as I bow my head. I look up as I hear someone knockingnat the door I thought it was Sammie but it was Suga. "Is Sammie with you?" He ask he looks a bit tipsy because they have been drinking for a while now.
"No hyung!She was here earlier but she left!" I told him. I couldn't even look him in the eye I am guilty about my feelings for Sammie. How lucky is he to call her his. I gave out a loud sigh.
"Where might she have gone. I checked the entire house already she is not even in her room. I just wanted to say goodnight to her. Anyways I am off to bed goodnight Jiminshi!!" Suga said trying to keep his eyes open as he left the room.
I went out my room and check where Sammie might have gone after she stormed out earlier. I check the pool the other members are there still drinking but no signs of Sammie. I checked the kitchen,the rooftop,the balcony on the other side of the villa, the garden at the other side but she isn't there.
I decided to go out she might be taking another walk to cool down. I have gone through the same way we did last night but she is nowhere to be found.
I decided to walk back to the villa she might be back already. As I approach the villa I saw her walking from the other side her head bowed down. I ran towards her "Sammie~ah where have you been Suga has been looking for you!" I told her worriedly her head is just bowed down and she isnt saying anything.
Finally she look up and she look at me with a blank stare.
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"Mianhe! I just needed some fresh air so I went to the beach side." She told me without any emotions. Then she walk pass me towards the villa. I instinctively grab a hold of her hand to face me.
"Sammie~ah Mianhe. Please don't be mad at me. I know I should have not done that I...."she didn't let me finish she put her hands up gesturing for me to stop talking. She gently pull her hands away from my grip.
" It's okay Oppa. Let's just forget it. I'm sorry if I over reacted I just have a lot in my mind lately!" She said in a weak tone she manage to give me a weak smile.
I notice that her eyes are puffy meaning that she had been crying for a while. That gave me a sudden jabbing pain in my chest. But I didn't dare ask her anything. I am just worried about her she is saying she is okay but she didn't look that she is okay. " Sammie~ah you know that if you are going through something that you can always talk to me right!" I told her. She nodded slowly and gave me another weak smile then turn around to walk towards the villa.
Sammie's POV:
I walk in the villa and I can still hear the voices of my other members in the pool area. I decided to just go straight in my room and lock it. Jimin didn't follow me or try to talk to me again which is a relief because I might end up crying again. I felt drained so I slowly walked towards my bed and dump myself on top of the mattress.
It had been a roller coaster ride for me ever since I started having feelings for Jimin. I didn't even remember how it started. It had been years and it is a constant struggle. And for the first time for years I felt really tired and this time it's for real I am fucking tired. And I could only blame myself for all the pain that I have felt.
He never knew my feelings, he never ask me to like him I am embarass at how I over reacted earlier. Yes I am in pain because of him but it was never his fault . He never intentionally hurt me. It was all because of me and my stupid stubborn heart.
What happen earlier and what he said made me realize one thing. I need to stop I need to move on. It wouldn't be easy it's a process that I need to endure I really need to move on.
For the longest time my happiness revolves around my members mostly him. But I wanted to be truly happy and I know I wouldn't able to do that until I let go.
I need to let go.
With that final thought I felt myself dozing off to a dreamless sleep.
