I put on my pajamas and watched TV downstairs.
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I went back up to my room to see Jahseh awake and he was just in sweatpants.
He smiled at me when I walked in.
I layed in between his legs and my head was in the crook of his neck.
He lifted up the back of my shirt and started rubbing my bare back.
"Mama" he said
"Hm" I hummed
"Can I have a kiss?" He questioned
I lifted my head up and softly placed my lips on his. He kissed back.
I pulled away but he immediately grabbed my neck and pulled me in for more.
He pulled away and I lagged back down on his chest.
"Babbbyyyyy" he whined
"Baby?" I questioned still laying on his chest
"Yes baby" he said
"Show me some love and affection" he whined
"I just did" I laughed
"But that was barely anything. I want more....all my life I never got love and affection so I really-" he got cut off
I started sucking on his neck. He immediately got quiet.
He started running his fingers through my hair.
He let out a sigh of satisfaction.
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I released from his neck and he had a hickey. I smirked at it.
He looked in my eyes with lust and admiration.
"I love you with all my heart.....and I always will" he said
It brought back memories when my parents would say that but now they don't want anything to do with me.
I knew I had sadness in my eyes.
"What's wrong?" He questioned
"Nothing" I said getting off of him.
I was got off the bed but he pulled me down by my waist.
"Mamas you okay?" He asked
"Yeah. I'm fine" I lied
"No you're not....face me" he said
I turned my body towards his.
"Tell me" he said calmly
I could feel the lump in my throat.
I was gonna get back up and he knew I was so he put his hands back on my waist and held me there.
"Did I do something wrong?" He said letting go of my waist
"No" I said
"Then what's wrong?" He asked with pleading eyes
I looked down and he lifted my head up by my chin then softly placed his lips on mine for a few seconds.
He pulled away
"You can tell me" he assured me
I sighed
"It's just.....the last someone said that to me they...." I said letting a few tears fall
He didn't let me finish
"Don't cry baby.....it's okay you don't have to finish....I know what you're gonna say" he said pulling me in for a hug.
"But I'm not going anywhere" he comforted me
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I got up to use the bathroom. I came out and Jahseh was sitting on the couch that was in my room. He looked at me and patted his lap
I walked over there
"You want me to sit on you?" I questioned
He nodded
He pulled me on his lap by my waist. I was facing him.
"I love you and that's not gonna change. Understand?" He said
I nod my head
"Here. Lay down" he said putting his hand on my back and pulled me down.
I was laying on his chest and my forehead was in the crook of his neck.
"Hold on" he said tapping my waist
I got up and he turned off all the lights.
It was pitch black in the room.
He put me in the same position I was in.
(You on his lap, laying down on his with your forehead in the crook of his neck)
"Seh" I said lifting my head up
"Sssshhhh go to sleep baby" he said putting my head back down.
"I love you" I said
"I love you more baby" he said
I smiled
He put his hands on my ass and started rubbing it softly and giving it occasional gentle squeezes.
I fell asleep to it.
