Where it all began

On the Bright Side

"Look at the bright side."

(Spencer's POV takes place at the same time as last chapter)

JJ and I were as happy as happy could get. We are on the lookout for houses considering my apartment only has two bedrooms and factoring the 50 percent probability of the baby being a girl we didn't want him or her to have to share a room with Henry. I want library space because Henry has taken over my current library and every surface in the apartment is covered in books. We took a day off for house hunting and dressed in a buzzing silence. We left with Henry in the back of the car still sleeping. The two year old looked peaceful as come be in his new book printed pajama set that I proudly purchased him.

"So do you think Henry will be alright with not seeing Will?" I asked JJ cautiously. We still haven't been talking about the situation because we are very wrapped up in preparing for the baby.

"I don't know. I'm not really sure how much he even remembers of him. His most recent memory is getting taunted in a pizza shop and before that it was throwing his toys at him and hiding with Jack." She took a moment letting me process her words. "I mean he has you. I wouldn't mind if you took Will's place in that way, you already took his place in the other ways." She laughed nervously after she talked.

"I mean I wouldn't mind that and... your not wrong about the other thing." The rest of the car ride to the house was silent. We pulled up to the house we were considering purchasing and stepped out. It was a beautiful house and had six bedrooms. That was enough for us, each of the kids, a library, a office and a spare bedroom for guests. The house appeared like this. (Picture will be at the end.)

After we placed our offer with the real estate lady JJ had her 7 month appointment scheduled. It was a bit late because we had to reschedule due to a case. But if we were lucky we would get to find out the gender today. Every other appointment the doctor had exclaimed that the baby just wouldn't show the "goods." When JJ got called back to the room the doctor motioned for her to lay on the table as she prepared the machine.

JJ laid down as directed and pulled her shirt up revealing her growing stomach. It amazed me every time I saw any of the girls' stomachs. There was an entire life growing inside of them. Elle liked to tell Morgan it was his fault she had gained weight. JJ kind of embraced the entire thing as it was her second time around. I didn't see much of Alex and Penelope. I don't know why but I didn't. Emily and Aaron came to our house every Saturday for dinner. Emily was kind of in a mood about the entire thing but she tried to hide it. I don't know why she didn't just express it like Elle did but I'm a guy so I'll never really experience emotions that way.

Truthfully I've been really scared about having a baby. I mean, sure Henry is mine but I didn't know that until after he turned two so I missed all the important stuff that happens in the first year. I felt really shitty I missed my own sons first birthday without even knowing it. I was at the party and all and I got him a gift but if I had known he was my own flesh and blood I would have done more. JJ hasn't wanted to address that subject either. She asked me to talk Will's place with Henry like Will wasn't technically the one taking my place before. I did not want to bring this up to her. I did not want to argue. I did not want confrontation. But I fear that it is going to happen.

We pulled up to my apartment complex and I stepped into the apartment with Henry on my hip and the diaper bag hanging off my other arm. At almost the exact second I set the bags down JJ said something that almost made me want to cry.

"I'm going to visit my mom for the week, can you keep Henry?" It wasn't the announcement itself that made me upset, it was the fact that we hadn't talked about it and I thought we talked about everything. For a moment I just stood there staring at her.

"Spence? Did you hear me?"

"Yeah, yeah I can hear you. I can keep Henry too."

"Thanks, I'm leaving in an hour."

"Isn't this uh... short notice?" I asked hesitantly.

"Oh, I thought I told you about it last week? Are you sure you didn't forget?" I knew I hadn't forgotten anything, I have an eidetic memory but I wasn't going to start an argument right before she left. The hour went by slowly, I read, Henry napped, JJ packed. I wish she had told me sooner. I don't know why she's being like this. But I wouldn't know I've only ever been in two relationships prior to this. And that didn't end as expected... but we can get into that later.

"Bye!" JJ called as she flung her arms around my neck gave me a quick kiss and ran out the door. Now I really didn't know what to do. A moment later I got a message.

Katie: you're coming right? It's your day to visit.

Me: oh shit! Yeah I'll be there, hold on.

I had completely forgotten about something that important just because I was so worried about Henry and JJ. I have to do something about where I put my attention. This cannot happen again.

A/N:
Sorry for not posting I've been busy. Sooo where do you think Reid is going.

~JR