Forgotten Forest Poetry

To A Lost 11yr Old (TW)

TW: References to some type of assault, more about my frustrations in terms of memory suppression, etc. 

Hi,

I've tried to contact you a few times,

But you were always too scared to pick up the phone,

Or open the door,

But that's okay,

I understand.

You were too scared for a lot of things.

I guess we haven't spoken

Honestly to each other,

And again,

I understand why.

I want to say that,

I am so sorry,

For everything you've gone through...

Are you angry, baby?

Are you confused?

Upset? Guilty?

Yeah, me too.

I wish you could tell me what happened,

I don't know right now,

But if you're not ready yet,

It's okay.

You've been through a lot lately,

And I don't mean to push you,

But you can imagine how confused I am.

I want to know everything,

And I also don't want to know anything,

It's living at this crossroads,

And no,

I don't blame you for it.

I blame...

Well, I wish I had someone to blame.

But you won't tell me who to be angry with,

So how could I?