Confused Feeling's ( B X B )

Chapter 54 - Perth's Wakes Up

I finally got to Perth's room by running there his door was closed i could feel my heart it was beating so fast i was so scared to see him i didn't know why but all i knew was that i was so happy to finally see him but there was a wash of guilt that came over me he was shot because of me if i just broke up with him none of this would of happened he wouldn't of been shot by that nutcase and in hospital how could i have been so selfish and stayed with him putting his life in danger just because i couldn't let him go i should of let him go he would of been better off without me and the drama that has followed i could feel myself starting to cry i took a deep breath holding in my tears.

I pushed Perth's door open to see him laying there this is my fault i repeated over and over in my head i rushed to his bed side ad took his hand in mine once again i am so sorry this is all my fault i should of broke up with you to protect you but i was selfish now look what has happened you've been shoot but that fucking nutcase and it could of been worse he could of killed you the tear were falling so fast and my heart was breaking seeing him this way i felt mine squeeze my hand " Baby it's not your fault don't blame yourself i don't want to hear you speaking about us breaking up cause i will never leave you cause i love you to much to let you go do you hear me" he said hearing those words from him made me so happy ' I will never leave you to cause i love you so much Perth'

Blue and Kain came in behind me " How are you feeling mate" they both asked i couldn't help but smirk they spoke at the same time Perth tried to sit up but he couldn't do it on his own so i helped him up " I am okay mate just my shoulder is killing me" my face dropped again his in pain and it is my fault his in pain but he noticed my face drop and he grabbed my hand " Babe stop blaming yourself it's not your fault okay" i know he is right but i can't help it Jacob hurt him cause of me he held my hand and didn't let go i held his hand tight as well we sat there speaking the whole time we didn't let go of each others hand i can't seem to let him go anymore my love for him is getting stronger and stronger and i don't think i can ever let him go and i don't want to ' Perth do you want anything to eat or drink babe' I asked him " No babe it's fine i just want to hold your hand" I couldn't stop the smirk that appeared on my face i was turning red as tomato i nodded to what he said.

The hours went by so quickly and the visiting hours were over the doctor came in telling us we had to leave so Perth he could get some rest i didn't want to leave him but we had to ' babe i will be back first thing tomorrow morning' i said kissing the top of his head he nodded it was so hard for me to leave him there alone but i would be back in the morning we left Perth's room and made our way out of the hospital to head home i didn't think i could feel safe at home on my own i turned and looked at my brother and Blue could you both stay with me tonight i don't think i can't stay alone night it has been so long since i have been in my own bed and now Perth is missing from that space.

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