Confused Feeling's ( B X B )

Chapter 60 - Make Up Or Break Up

< One Month Later >

It has been one month since Perth has been in hospital i still haven't seen him since i told him we should have a break which he agreed to from what i have heard from Kain and Blue is that he is recovering pretty well his shoulder is healing nicely and he can move it on his own which means he could be coming home a lot earlier then expected this month not next month which i am happy with but also nervous about i have been going to see the doctor and opening up about how i feel to be honest the first appointment was horrible i didn't like it opening up about it made made me feel uncomfortable having to relive the same thing over and over was so hard but now i feel much better and i don't have nightmares anymore but i am suffering with guilt i can't seem to help it everyone tells me don't blame yourself your not to blame you didn't know what that guy was capable of which they are right but you didn't think someone could be like that.

The house was empty once again they both went to visit Perth today now that i am feeling better i want to work on our relationship i know it sounds selfish to say but deep down inside there is a feeling that after this break we are having Perth will break up with me once and for all and i am scared because i can't lose him but when you love someone you have to let them go you can't be selfish if he doesn't want to be with me anymore i can't force him to be i just hope he will find someone who is right for him and good enough for him my phone rang pulling me from my thoughts it was my mum

Mum is calling. . .

MUM: Hello

KEN: Hello

MUM: Why haven't you been calling me i have been so worried

KEN: Sorry i have been busy with coursework

Well that was a big Lie if i ever heard one how can i say sorry i was kidnapped and tied to a bed by my crazy teacher who wanted me to be his our and yeah i have a boyfriend and he was shot

MUM: Your such a good boy are you planning to come home for your break

KEN: Yeah me and Kain will be coming back

MUM: Oh that's great both my sons coming home

KEN: Yeah i can't wait mum

MUM: That's good to hear well sorry it's short just wanted to check in need to get back to work now

KEN: Okay mum i let you go bye

MUM: Bye Son

Call Ended ...

I didn't seem to hear the door open behind me until i heard someone cough behind me when i turned around there was someone who i didn't expect to see it was Perth how is he out of hospital i wasn't ready for this i got up and ran into the bathroom locking the door so no one could enter " Babe please open the door we need to talk i told you when i get out of hospital we are going to talk come on open the door" he said bang on the door he was right he did say we was going to speak but i am scared of the out come what if he really does want to leave me but i can't stop him and i can't hide away either so i unlocked the door so that i was face to face with him ' How are you open of hospital already isn't your shoulder still healing' i asked him " It is still healing a little bit but it is okay now i can move it i nodded at him ' Well that is good to hear' i slide passed him and made my way into the living room to sit on the sofa i felt nervous i didn't know what he was going to say.

He slowly made his way to the sofa and sat down next to me " Why do you look so nervous like the first time we meet each other" he said smiling to himself ' Because i don't know what your going to say maybe you want to break up with me which i won't stop you cause i know being in a relationship with me isn't easy' it was like i spoke in a different language because he didn't say a word all he did was look at me in disbelief he stood up throwing his hands in the air which confused me " When did i say i was going to break up with you i agreed to this break cause you wanted it and now i want to talk about where we go from here but baby i don't want to break up with you i love you too much to let you go" hearing him say he doesn't want to break up made me feel happy i could leave him if i tried we sat there speaking about relationship how we can move forward from here i am going to be more open and tell him how i am feeling so we will work together to make this relationship work..

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