In denial//clexa-lexarke an

Acceptance

Two days before leaving, Alicia and Elyza laid on the roof, enwrapped in the comfort of the dark sky and the silence their seclusion brought. Alicia cuddled into Elyza as the blonde just stared at the brunette while she played with her hair.

"I can't believe she kissed you," Alicia spoke after a long time of comfortable silence.

Elyza chuckled. "I can't believe I'm gonna start a sentence like this but, in Erika's defense, she said she didn't know we were a thing". Elyza didn't fancy calling what she and Alicia had "a thing" because it was so much more, but she wasn't sure how okay Alicia would be with any other label, so she had to be careful.

Alicia clenched her jaw, sat up right away and looked at Elyza in outrage, "Seriously? She didn't know? What is that supposed to mean?" she spoke with a tone of contempt at the redhead.

"She just said she had no idea about us because we didn't act like a couple here at the mansion. She said she thought we were casual, no feelings involved," Elyza explained.

The blonde was aware that she had technically called her and Alicia a couple, and she waited for the brunette's immediate reaction to the word. So much for being careful with labels. She contemplated saying something other than couple but she ended up using it on purpose in the end. She wanted to see Alicia's reaction to it. But as soon as she said it, she thought about taking it back and apologizing, but she decided against that too. If she had taken it back and Alicia had not corrected her and affirmed that they were indeed a couple then it would have hurt Elyza, and she didn't want to put herself in that position. She also considered asking Alicia what they were. She knew they sure as hell were not casual, and there were certainly feelings involved, but she wanted to hear Alicia say something, to recognize their relationship at least just to her, even if not to anyone else. She kicked herself mentally; none of this had bothered her until Erika had put it in her head. That fucking redhead. 

Alicia sighed and pursed her lips at the realization that Erika was not completely to blame for being a jerk, but that didn't mean she was about to let that kiss go. When she thought of it, she got irate and she wanted to harm the redhead and tell her to never go near Elyza again and kick her ass with her bat.

Elyza waited for Alicia to process what she had said but the brunette appeared to have completely overlooked Elyza's wording.

"Okay," was all Alicia said as she let out a long breath. She took Elyza's hand and intertwined their fingers together, then laid down and cuddled her again.

Okay? Elyza had no idea what that was supposed to mean. But at least the brunette had not frozen at the implication that they were a couple. If she had even heard Elyza say it.

The blonde chose not to say anything further and instead she enjoyed the moment, knowing it was the last time they would ever lay on the roof of that mansion. They were leaving in for the yacht soon, and she knew they would be too busy packing and helping prepare provisions for the trip to an unknown destination to sit and snuggle on the roof for hours uninterrupted.

Elyza pulled Alicia closer as she thought of leaving the security of their location soon. She suddenly got very afraid that something could happen on the way to the yacht or any other moment after that. Elyza had underrated the protection they had at the mansion and now that they were truly leaving, the very real and dangerous threat of the world outside their bubble awaited them.