You loved him. That was the problem.He had already moved on. But you were still stuck in the past of your relationship. You in your wierd logic had decided, since you couldnt get his heart, you had to imagine him there by your side. But the problem was that you couldnt be talking to nobody so you had to find someone.And that someone came in the form of Oh Sehun who had a crush and have been chasing you. And maybe, just maybe, you could learn to love Sehun back someway.
When you told Sehun that yes, you would date him, he was estatic. But in fact you were just hoping that that was your ex. But in fact, he was a lot different from Sehun. He was mature with a tint of childiness, but mostly was cold. But that was what attracted you. Sehun was mostly childish and cute. Since it was you who made that decision of dating sehun, you had to bear with his cuteness.
Everything was going fine with Sehun though you were still loving your ex but it was kept a secret from Sehun. Until that night you came home drunk, leaving Sehun to take care of you. You awoke in the morning with a stoic Sehun sitting in the living room. You were quite startled as to why he wasnt greeting you with his usual playfulness. Sensing the tense situation, you sat down beside him and touched his arm. He froze and looked away, swatting your arm away. “Did i.. do something wrong last night?“ “LAST NIGHT YOU WERE MUMBLING SOME GUYS NAME! ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME? ALL THIS TIME THAT YOU WERE WITH ME YOUR HEART WAS ACTUALLY WITH SOME OTHER PERSON?!“ For some reason, something in your heart broke and you stood up and shouted at him: “ YES YOU WERE RIGHT! I NEVER LOVED YOU! TO ME YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE! IT WAS JUST PART OF MY PLAN!“ And then you started spilling the secret you have kept for 1 year.
The next day, for the first time, you woke up to a silent house. Unsurprisingly, Sehun left, leaving you behind. “Fine.“ you thought. “I can live withouht him.“ But slowly you realized. No. You cant. After your ex left, there was a void that he left. But Sehun came and filled it; left and created a bigger void.
You couldnt explain why you felt that. You had flings before that didnt leave you feeling that empty so why this time?
It took you 1 month without any contact with Sehun to realize that 1 simple fact: You fell for Oh Sehun just like you hope you did. But you just stupidly ruined that single hope.
You roamed about in your now silent home. It used to be filled with laughter from you because of Sehun's childish acts. You gazed at the couch where nights were filled with Sehun's cuddles and late night movies. Chore days were spent fooling around. And weekend mornings with pillow fights. You did none of these with your ex boyfriend as he didnt like such activities. when sehun started these activities you were unused to it, but soon it became a daily routine just like how sehun had become part of your life too. But his departure took all of this with him too.You missed him. A spark lighted in you as you thought of ways to get him back. But these hopes crashed too, when you saw him part of someone else life too. And for some reason, it looked like he belonged.
